Late night somethings.
You would come to a point in your life where you would envy those people who had their oh-so-perfect relationship. How they talk about their relationship like it’s the most greatest thing ever. How they would stay up late talking about nothing. How they would tease and laugh at each other just cause y’know they’re retards. How they would dance and make weird faces then laugh cause you both have no idea what the hell you’re doing. How you would sing to each other. How you would kiss each other playfully. How you would stare at each other like everything’s alright. How you would held each others hand like they’re a part of you. How you would hug and feel that you’re always protected and safe and that no one’s gonna stop you know. How you would suddenly smile just because you remember him/her. How you would feel those butterflies each time you talk. How everything makes sense to you. And how you would feel like its the greatest thing that has ever happened to you and you wouldn’t want it to end, EVER. Those kind of relationship. Though it may sound cheesy and cliche but you know this kind of things, happen.
To tell you the truth, it happened once in my life. I was all young and inlove. To cut the story short, shit happened then the rest is history. I’m just saying that maybe it’s true with what they’ve all been saying, you’ll have those sweet I-wouldn’t-want-this-to-end moments on your relationship on those first months or I dunno years then you’d eventually fight and go through a lot of shit like you’ve never been happy before. Things happen and you wouldn’t have any choice to accept it. From happiness to tears. There’s this stage where either one of you did something wrong, then you would fight over it and curse the world for all you care, you would be upset about it for days, then you both would realize what you did and how stupid you both were, then you could compromise and agree and PROMISE that you wouldn’t do it again, then you would go back to being young and inlove, then eventually do something wrong for the nth time, well, y’know what’s next. It’s a mean cycle, but that’s just it. You keep expecting, you end up disapponted. Then you overthink. It keeps happening then you would realize that things would be falling apart and you have no idea how to stop it. I KNOW, harsh. Well, what do you expect?
I'm just saying that we need to realize that some things don't stay that way all the time. You would go through a lot of things that would change you. You wouldn't want things to stop but it would. People lie, truth hurts, feelings change. You need to embrace the hurt with so much understanding and you need to accept that your expectations wouldn't happen like you've always imagined it will. It's real. All there's left are memories.
It feels weird talking about this with what I'm feeling now. Oh well.
As much as I would like to be young and inlove and innocent the next time around, there’s a lot of shit that I’ve been through that I wouldn’t want to go through all over again. I wouldn’t want to end up blaming myself for not realizing that the exact same thing happened with my past relationship. But that would be blank months from now. I’d be bitter about everything and all but I’ll eventually get pass through this, I hope. Lesson learned. Things I’ve realized. First things first. Goodluck to me.