#thoughtsonaroof

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Hey friend I'm super proud of you for your amazing work and awesome talent and I cannot wait to see you perform on Friday 💗💗💗💗

Thanks so much! I’ll see you there!

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Saying that I love him when I know I’m gonna leave him

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So here I am, alone again, though I know I did the right thing. By ending it now I saved us both a world of hurt down the road, and we can still love each other the way we should without bitterness or regret between our hearts. But knowing that won’t stop the twinge of pain at the sound of our song, or the regret when I don’t go to prom with you by my side, or the crushing loneliness at 1 in the morning when the bed feels big and unfamiliar, because it’s not yours. But despite this, I’m going to keep my resolve. I’m not going to run back to you because you’re safe and familiar and loved; I won’t do that to myself or to you. There is someone else out there for both of us, this I am so sure of. But tonight that’s hard to remember. So I’ll fall asleep listening to the playlist you made me and turn off my phone so I won’t be tempted to call you when I need you. I’ll sleep in your sweater again, and when my friends ask in the morning I’ll just say it was cold and this was the warmest I had (which is true.) I’ll take my time to say goodbye to this, because we deserve it. Because we were peaceful and fun and beautiful. But when the songs stop getting stuck in my heart as well as my head and your sweater doesn’t smell like you anymore, I’ll put it aside and prepare to move on to whatever God has waiting next. I feel sure that I will see you along the way, because I love you and always will. But I also know that when I lay this down, I’ll be ready not to simply love, but to fall in love completely, in a way I never have before. Thank you for these last months and this last night.

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I thought there could be nothing worse than falling out of love with someone. Right now, in this moment, I can feel it happening to me; the disenchantment, realizing that he is not everything I thought he was and opening my eyes to all the things he is... It all sucks. This is the first time I've ever slowly fallen out of love- the last time I loved someone he broke my heart clean and quick. And yes, it does hurt. It's just as bad, and maybe worse than I ever thought it would be. I can see the end coming, and I'm still dragging my feet there because part of me doesn't want this to be true. But here's the thing. This whole experience, as wonderful and terrible as it has been has opened my eyes to something immensely more important. I have fallen out of love with Jesus. Now that's not to say that I've lost faith or that I'm resentful towards God for the bad things that have happened in the last few months and even years, but I haven't been feeling that love. The love that keeps me alive and amazed at the beauty of God and His creations has burned low, and I'm at fault. So at 3:11 in the morning on one of the first mornings of a new year, this is my one true revelation and resolution; I need Jesus more than I need anything. He is all I need and all I want. Everything I could ever possibly need or desire is in Him, and will be filled. This is a day I will resolve to live in Him and for Him and forget worldly sorrows and fears and anxieties. God is for me, what can stand against me?

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Love and The Season

This Christmas, I am blessed. I am blessed every day, but especially at this time of year. I can appreciate it so much more than I ever have before; the incredible love of my friends and family, from my best friend to my theatre troupe and youth group to my joyful godfather. I even have the joy of my wonderful boyfriend this Christmas, and I am grateful every day for the love and laughter he brings to my world. However, even that love pales in comparison to the greatest love of all; the love of the Christ. When He was born for us, He knew what He was doing. He knew He would face persecution and suffering and heartbreak and even death. But He chose it anyway, because He loved us so. We know already that God loved us- “For God so loved the world…” But I like to think Jesus learned to love us. It’s like a child’s relationship to Him. When you’re young, you go along with it because you are suppose to. But as you grow and come to know Jesus personally, you can love Him, really love Him with a fierce, passionate desire. Maybe that’s what is was like for Jesus- He was the dutiful son who did as He was told by His Father, but as He lived among us, saw the beauty and love we were capable of- the loyalty and friendship of His disciples, the goodness and selflessness of His stepfather Joseph, the devoted love of Mary- He saw the best of us, and went to the cross not just willingly, but gladly. This season, as you take time to appreciate the love of those dearest to you, remember that first and greatest love; the love of a Father for the whole world. Merry Christmas friends, and peace to you all.

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thoughtsonaroof replied to your post:Unashamedly listening to August Burns Red’s...

No, be ashamed, it’s only September. Do you want to anger the holiday gods? 😳

The holiday gods can go do inappropriate things with a cactus

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thoughtsonaroof replied to your post: Finally watched the premier of DW and ...

ATTACK EYEBROWS

THEY CAN OPEN BOTTLES