. a voice
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The days seemed to be getting longer, dragging on and on to the point where Sunggyu would rather sleep more often than not. He’s considered closing the bookshop down for the weekend, just to spend some time in comforting isolating; just so he could wrap himself in his blanket and sip some tea while enjoying a few of the books in his shop. Instead though, Sunggyu finds himself spending another afternoon shelving the books people return and making sure everything is perfectly organized. He couldn’t handle having it out of place really, anytime he saw the books that were shoved in odd places; he would feel his stress levels escalated.
To calm his irritation; he thought back to his younger years - which was a tad ironic as thinking of his life before the experiments usually caused more bad than good, but this time around he thought of a particular group he enjoyed listening to; and thought of a song he happened to enjoy.
Without thinking, his lips fell part and the song started off as a whisper - “ I didn’t know back then, that’s why I was careless And that’s why it was more beautiful....”
His lashes fluttered shut as he let his voice grow louder; the lyrics hit hard in his heart.
“ Giving and receiving scars is part of being human And I don’t think I was really scared of that If you just wipe it, that’s it that’s what tears are If you don’t go there, that’s it, that’s what memories are ...”
Leaning back against one of the shelves behind him, Sunggyu’s head tilt back and he tried desprately not to cry; “ If you just endure, that’s it, that’s what pain is
If you just take it, that’s it, that’s what sadness is
Sometimes, I still think I can be like that
But once again…Fear takes a hold of me and my heart grows heavy And a sigh comes out of my mouth again
Time made me into an adult But I don’t think it made me strong Time made me into an adult But it made me that much more of a fool...”
The voice shocked him, the female tone shook him from his state and he found himself suddenly twisting and facing the stranger - eyes wide and cheeks slightly tinted pink in embarrassment.
“I- ...” blinking a few times, he raised his hand over his mouth; he knew that his voice carried sadness, had he affected her? Guilt washed over Sunggyu as he diverted his gaze away.