TIMING: Day after Blackout (11/23) LOCATION: Oliver’s home, PARTIES: Isidore (@cursedmaestro) & Oliver (@oliver–fox) SUMMARY: Isidore cares for Oliver the day after the blackout, but breaks the news that he told Cleo about Oliver's secret. Oliver is less than thrilled. CONTENT WARNINGS: None!
While Oliver slept after they got back to the nymph’s house, Izzy didn’t dare to let himself sleep. If the magic went away again, he couldn’t live with himself if he’d been asleep when it happened. Instead of sleeping, he’d taken to cleaning up the spilled tea that had been left on the ground, shattered fragments of the cup all over. Anything to keep his mind occupied was better than sitting around and stewing in guilt and regret. Guilt that he’d told Cleo, regret that he wasn’t there when Oliver had needed him. He couldn’t have predicted the blackout, sure. But still, what if he could have at least been there in time? Guilt that he knew Oliver’s deepest secret, but Oliver didn’t know his. No one knew his.
Izzy twisted the handle of the broom in his hand, staring at the swept-up pile of ceramic fragments. He had to tell Oliver that Cleo knew, and he had to rebalance the playing field. Oliver trusted Izzy, and Izzy needed to trust Oliver. Trust was scary. It meant allowing someone in when it could end in betrayal and utter heartbreak. He’d spent over thirty years avoiding true relationships. Cleo and Oliver had been the only people he’d let in. Cleo, who had persisted for quite some time, and Oliver, who was a newer friend, but a strong connection all the same.
If he kept on pretending he could do it all on his own, the truth would bury him alive. He knew this to be true. The guilt was killing him when he allowed himself to feel it. That’s why Izzy spent so much of his time pretending he was above emotions, that he could twist and subject emotional weakness to his will, to prove to himself and those around him that he was strong. He wasn’t strong. He was fracturing under the strain of his own inability to cope.
Hearing movement behind him, Izzy quickly swept up the mug fragments into the dustpan and disposed of them before walking over to Oliver’s side, worry etched into his features as he watched the nymph wake up. “How are you feeling?” He asked gently, head tilting to the side in observation.
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Oliver didn’t know how long he had slept, but his body still felt exhausted. As he forced his eyelids open, Oliver could hear movement around him. For a moment, he had forgotten what had occurred the day before. For a moment, he assumed a hook-up was leaving and that he had maybe gone a little too hard on a night out. He didn’t feel... quite hungover, but something felt off. His body ached, but his limbs felt stiff and heavy. A headache brewed, and nausea swirled within his stomach. He heard Izzy next to him, and his eyebrows furrowed. Why was Izzy here? Oliver slowly blinked at the other; when suddenly the memories of the day before slammed into his brain. The feeling of his body shutting down; of waking up in the Aos Sí; of telling Izzy everything that was going on.
He sat up slowly, tilting his hand back and forth a bit. “Not great,” Oliver said softly, as he cleared his throat. “Not awful though, how are you doing?” He added, not wanting to worry the other anymore than he already had. It wasn’t a lie after all. He gazed at the other, eyebrows pinched as he took in the fact that Izzy didn’t look any different than he had last night. The darkened shadows under Izzy’s eyes and the fact that not a hair was out of place told a story that Oliver wasn’t a fan of. “Did you not sleep?”
Oliver’s gaze fell on the broom the other was holding. A light blush slipped over his cheeks, “Oh, you didn’t have to do that…” Oliver trailed off. There was a part of him that was grateful that Izzy had done it; that he hadn’t had to think of why he had dropped the cup in the first place. However, there was another part of him that could hear his mother’s voice lecturing him on not being a good host. “Are you hungry?” He ignored the way his stomach turned at the thought of eating. “I can make breakfast!” Oliver said, throwing his legs over the side of the bed and standing. Perhaps a touch too quickly, judging by how the edges of his vision blurred for a moment upon getting vertical. “In..a minute that is.” Oliver conceded, sitting back down slowly.
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Isidore let out an unamused huff as Oliver tried to play off his pain. Of course he wasn’t alright, he was clinically dead for twelve hours! “No, I didn’t sleep. If it happened again while we slept, I would have never forgiven myself.” He hated being this honest, but it was better than telling a lie that led him to feel sick, giving him away anyway. No, it was better to be honest. Like telling Oliver what happened. He needed to! But it was hard. He knew that Oliver struggled to tell him what was going on in the first place. But to admit that in a moment of fear and feeling completely alone, he turned to someone that also knew Oliver? He’d feel betrayed. He knew his friend far too well to think otherwise. The guilt was written all over his face as he turned to put the broom back to where it belonged.
“Yes I had to do that. I wasn’t about to make you relive the trauma you went through.” Izzy stared over at Oliver, expression unreadable for a long moment. “I’m not hungry, you know I don’t need to eat.” Izzy’s voice was gentle as he flitted over to Oliver’s side, arm wrapping around the nymph as he lowered himself back onto the couch. “Take it easy, your body needs time to heal.” Too close.
Izzy got back up into his feet, brushing off his pants as he tried to play off his nerves. “Do you need something to eat? I can make something… do you have cereal?” He began to walk toward the kitchen, looking around. No way was he turning on the stove, he would burn the place to the ground. Him? Cook food? Edible? Absolutely not.
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Oliver hadn’t even considered the fact that it could have happened again so soon. Previously, there had been at least a month between blackouts after all. Though, he supposed, there was no reason to assume that the pattern would hold. The length of the blackouts had jumped so significantly that it was impossible to predict when the next one would occur. It was frightening to never know when everything could change again. Oliver felt a sense of guilt about the whole situation. He wasn’t a witness to the chaos that he was sure was abundant during everything; he was too busy being dead. Nothing but a weight for whoever happened to be around to deal with. Swallowing down any of those doubts, Oliver instead nodded towards Izzy. “Right.” He hated how guilty his friend looked. It wasn’t as if there was anything the other could do. “Just…don’t make a habit of it? No point in wearing yourself down just because something could happen, you know?”
Listening to Izzy speak about wanting to help made Oliver’s heart twist in a way that he hadn’t felt in a long time. “Thanks” Oliver said softly, a soft smile lifting up the corners of his mouth. At the mention of how the other fae didn’t eat, Oliver hummed, “Oh, right,” before shaking his head at the idea of eating anything. “No..I don’t…trust my stomach very much right now.” He said, eyes following Izzy as he wandered towards the kitchen. There had been at least a handful of attempts by Oliver to teach the other how to cook dishes, but none had ended successfully. “I’ll try eating something in a bit, though.” Oliver tacked on, not wanting to add any more to Izzy’s list of worries.
“How are things at your Aos Sí today? Was there any fallout from everything?” Oliver asked, standing carefully and feeling a wave of relief as the world didn’t blur again. He walked carefully out of the bedroom, leaning against the door frame. “Don’t feel like you have to stick around here if other things are happening. You have a way to find me if you need me.” He brought the AirTag out from underneath his shirt and twisted it between his fingers.
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As Oliver told him not to make a habit of staying up, Isidore stared blankly forward, his back turned to the nymph as he struggled with the words. “I’m a whole-ass adult. I can do what I please,” he sniped before turning his head to look at Oliver. His eyes were sad, betraying any bitterness in his tone. “Please. Give me this. If nothing else, let me at least have this.” The only thing I can possibly control is being there. The muse closed his eyes, then let out a sigh. He wouldn’t be staying much longer anyway, and then he could sleep. Oliver was going to kick him out anyway. He was really delaying the inevitable.
When his attempts to feed Oliver were shot down, he instead grabbed a glass and filled it with water before returning to Oliver and handing it over. “At least drink something. Your mouth must be dry as a desert right about now.” Izzy’s gaze was pleading, desperate to get Oliver to do something beneficial.
“The fae are fine,” he answered softly, his gaze drifting away. If anything, showing his vulnerable side had caused Isidore’s people to trust him more than they did before. It showed that he was prone to emotion and vulnerability, just like them. It showed his humanity. So while he dreaded bringing Oliver there, it had been the right play. “Listen, I…” he trailed off, knowing that he couldn’t keep putting it off. He had to tell Oliver.
“When you were dead, I was beside myself. My best friend was dead, and I was helpless to do anything but mourn you completely alone. So in a moment of utter loneliness and grief, I reached out to someone and told her what was going on. This person, it turns out, knows who you are.” Izzy took a step away, eyes lowering to the ground as he hugged his arms around himself. He was waiting for the blowback. “It was Cleo. Cleo knows. She knows that you die during the blackouts.”
He wanted to keep explaining himself, that it wouldn’t be fair to him to have to shoulder the burden of his best friend’s death alone. That grief wasn’t something to go through alone. But it wouldn’t matter. If Oliver was going to hate him, throwing excuses at him wouldn’t do a damn thing. So instead, he waited for the nymph to kick him out. “I’m sorry.” He finally said, his tone in utter despair as he awaited the inevitable.
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Oliver sighed deeply at Izzy’s statement that he was an adult and that he could do what he wanted, but any further argument died on his tongue when the other turned around, and Oliver saw his face. There was such…sadness in Izzy’s eyes, and it made Oliver feel itchy. Why did the other care so much? God, it would be so much easier if Oliver didn’t feel guilty about causing the other to feel pain. If he had never opened his mouth about what was going on, then all of this could have been avoided. Now he knew everything, which meant that Oliver would only continue to cause him pain. He hated everything about this. “Right, of course, sorry,” Oliver said softly, eyes shifted to the ground.
Oliver took the water gently and took a sip. It was refreshing, where he hadn’t realised he was so thirsty until he had been given the chance to change it. He allowed himself one more sip before he held the glass by his fingertips at his side. “Oh, good.” He said simply, before he tilted his head to the side when Izzy trailed off. “What is it?” Oliver asked. Maybe the other doesn’t feel like he can continue to be around Oliver while this is going on. It would make sense. It’s a lot, and right now there’s no solution. Oliver wouldn’t blame Izzy if he needed to step away. Reconvene once everything’s been fixed, or maybe he would just come to the funeral. Oliver couldn’t help but scrunch his nose at the thought. What good would a funeral do?
Izzy’s voice cuts through the downward spiral before it can even start. However, as the words left his lips, Oliver felt like he'd been thrown into a pool with weights around his legs. Cleo knows. Cleo knows. “You did what?” Oliver asked, hoping that maybe he had simply misunderstood what he had said. In the back of his mind, there was a small sliver of relief; it could be worse. Oliver knew Cleo; he trusted her, but the fact that Izzy just spilled one of his darkest secrets to someone when he didn’t even know that Oliver had a prior connection with her? What if it had been a hunter? What if it had been Owen? “You just-You just told someone what was going on?”
Izzy’s apologies went unheard, Oliver’s mind already racing. Cleo knew. Which meant she would have questions. She was new to Wicked, which meant she didn’t know who she could trust. What if she told the wrong person? What if it somehow ended up turning back on her and getting her hurt? He shifted his weight, turning slightly away from Izzy, using the hand that wasn’t currently gripping the glass to rub his eyes. “I don’t-I thought you were smarter than this.” Oliver bites out, tone icy. Suddenly, Oliver’s head shoots up so fast that he sees stars. “Did you tell anyone else? Did you tell them about the other problem I’m having?” He was out for 12 hours; if Izzy told one person, then he can’t assume that it was only Cleo who knew now. “Don’t you get how much danger that puts me in now?”
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Izzy had been expecting the blowback, so he clenched his jaw as Oliver started to shout back at him. “I told my other closest friend what I was going through so it wouldn’t eat me alive. Pardon me for daring to trust someone for the first time in forty years,” the muse snarled back. He couldn’t help it. He was so tired of being expected to be the best version of himself, even for Oliver. The anger came off of Isidore in waves, unable to hold himself back from the despair he felt. Losing someone all over again through the actions of his own doing. It never felt good, not even after all this time.
“I didn’t tell anyone else! But I didn’t think you were ever going to wake back up, excuse me for being upset about this!” He knew there was no getting Oliver back from this, and he was fighting every toxic urge he had to burn every bridge down in his wake. But he didn’t. Instead, he simply nodded his head and shuffled toward the door. “Hate me all you want. But I still stood by you every second of that harrowing experience. I thought that would show you how much you matter to me, but I guess I was wrong.”
The whole time, these one-sided feelings truly were just that: one-sided. Isidore squeezed his eyes shut for a moment before throwing the front door open and walking out. He didn’t want to hear anything more that Oliver had to say. It would get him nowhere. Better to leave the friendship where it was instead of burning it to the ground in a fit of desperate rage. “Good luck out there,” was all he said before shutting the door behind him.
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Oliver seethed as Izzy spoke. “You didn’t need to give my name out, and you didn’t have to give her the full story!” He said before throwing his hands up, water sloshing up the glass but not quite spilling over the edge “There was no indication that the blackout would go on forever; you should have waited!” There had also not been any indication that the blackout wouldn’t go on forever, but that little fact didn’t help Oliver’s argument, so he chose to ignore it. “I’m sorry you haven’t trusted anyone in 40 years, but maybe start by spilling your own secrets before dishing out anyone else’s.”
“I didn’t ask you to stand by me! You chose to push yourself into this situation! I would have been fine to wake up alone!” Oliver flinched at the ache that blossomed from within his stomach at the lie. It would have been horrifying to wake up alone, in a darkened home surrounded by broken glass and the chill of a winter night. Theoretically, Mickey could have found him, but that wouldn’t have been a guarantee. Oliver had felt safe when he woke up next to Izzy, knowing that he had been protected, that someone cared. He swallowed down the nausea that threatened to flare back up.
Oliver curled his free hand into a fist as the other walked out. “Fuck you Isidore” He shouted, throwing the glass of water against the now shut door. It sailed through the air before crashing against the wooden barrier with a shatter. His body trembled, and he wasn’t sure if it was from rage, fear, or adrenaline. His breathing had picked up, and he stood there for a moment, and then another. He half expected, maybe even hoped, that Izzy to turn around; for them to talk more; to work something out. The door stayed shut, and Oliver felt the edges of his eyes burn as he realized Izzy wasn’t coming back. That perhaps their friendship had ended right then and there. A relationship that could have lasted decades was cut short in its infancy. Oliver let out a sound, a gasp mixed with a sob as he reached up and gripped the shirt above his chest. Why didn’t Izzy understand?
Oliver squatted down, palms resting over his eyes. He didn’t know how long he sat there. Long enough that his thighs are burning, and for the tears to have stopped flowing. He sniffled as he stood back up, using the wall as support as he grabbed the broom that Izzy had put away. Throwing the glass away, Oliver couldn’t help but wonder if that would be the last time he would ever interact with Izzy. If any following interactions would be through sights around town, quiet glances between the two until one left Wicked by either going over state lines or in the ground.












