Jun 6, 2021
If I write a trans!woman bela dimitrescu fic would anyone be interested?
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If I write a trans!woman bela dimitrescu fic would anyone be interested?
Every motherfucker in this gym is staring at me for wearing a mask like I know not all of you bitches is fucking vaccinated and I like having a barrier against airborned diseases due to my shittny immune system (thanks pcos and diabetes.) But IS2G if we get a covid vaccine resistant mutation I am gonna be so angry at all these assholes.
All lesbians be doing is thirstposting about alcina dimitrescu.
Its me. I'm the lesbian.
Toasted trashed smashed had a protein shake andna donut and peeing at the gym will let you all know when I get home safe.
Going out to a girls night with a bunch of 40 yo women in your 20's is an
experience
And I highly reccomend it, not just for the drinks but its so wholesome.
God really nerfed me when he gave me small titties. Like "lets give the bitch dysphoria, dysmorphia and gender problems good fucking luck kid" nah @ god give me them fucking massive honkers let your favorite princess and whore be a lesbian in peace bitch fuckin rude
Everytime someone leave a kudos on my old Swanqueen fics I always cringe bc a.) My writing always feels bad to me and b.) They were written while tipsy on a casino boat and c.) I'm upset I've not felt the energy nor desire to write outside of plot bunnies @ work 😭🐸
genuinely, i feel so disconnected from myself and stranded in my own head most of the time. for a long while i had suspicions of pcos, but overall i was comfortable. but now? frankensteined is the perfect word. i don't know where or what i am. i can't recognize myself from who i was a year ago. even a few months ago. and it's exactly that desire to go back to the before time. to take medication or "manage" and feel how you did once, but it's the fear that you may not feel like that again and this is the new normal to adjust to, you know? with the added layer of lesbianism and possibly being nonbinary, which i never saw coming. hit after hit lol. sorry for rambling in your ask! but i'm glad to know someone on my dash in the same boat and i hope you find peace with it in whatever way you can.
Bud I aint finding peace. When it comes to my mental health I MAKE the peace. And I aint letting you stay stuck in the same negative mindspace I was in either. Fuck that.
We get to decide who are, at some point and we can decide to like ourselves too. Maybe not love, but like. And if that means telling myself "I love her. She is me, and I love her." In the mirror than I'm doing it. If it means saying shit to make myself feel happier and better like "i'm gods favorite mistake and her favorite princess 😇💝🐝" than I'm going to.
I've spent too much of my life uncomfortable for a variety of reasons. So now when i get uncomfortable, I make myself comfortable. (Or I sleep it off and see if it was worth getting worked up over) And if I dont like the new normal, I'm gonna over analyze and either go back or say "fuck it" and create an even more new normal. You will feel happy and good about yourself again, I promise.
Dissasociation is how I spend most of my time, being adhd and (possibly) autistic. Find the things in yourself that actually do remind yourself of who you are. Who you actually are, even if its just the you in your head. Make them anchors to bring that into reality because therapy is expensive. Force the world to give you those things to make you comfortable with whatever it is.
You can take baby steps into the new normal if you want, and honestly if you dont wanna take any other medication to manage your PCOS than birth control thats fine, too. (i wanna get on E because I have too much T and feel like my arms are displaying male pattern muslce growth and like... I wanna be beefy but like... charlotte flair beefy.) Sorry for rambling myself but I had lots of thoughts but my main point is just. Life is a journey and sometimes you wanna deck both life and yourself in the face and you gotta figure that out as well as how to make yourself happy and comfortable.
You do you. Just be happy.
Also you can PM me whenever 🤙 bud sometimes having someone who "gets it" is good.