#tiipoetry

[phyerrhed]

I feel drowned

Covered in responsibilities that don't care to even know my name

They're completed and immediately replaced with more

My complaints met with confused looks and dancing shackles

As I walk by, dying souls giggle as their vessels bleeds out on the street.

My world became so small seemingly over night

Months were long but the weeks were longer

Everyday struggling to wake up. Every night revealing what I had lost.

I hate to complain but everything else is terrifying and heavy

"what if what if what if what if what if...."

SPINNING! DIZZY! LAZY! TRYING! HELP ME!

Is there anything anyone could even do? If my God is quiet and the world keeps spinning without me...

I've been struggling for a while about things that I have no desire to talk about to deaf ears that are "used to it". I feel anger when I speak. "Why am I the only one tt with the things going on?", "why am I the only one able to sit with myself?", "why am I the only one that feels genuinely alive?". I KNOW things will be fine but things are getting WORSE RIGHT NOW! Am I expecting too much as asking for too little? Am i not working hard enough or am I expecting others to do it for me? Is this right? Am I right? Or am I dying too... Im scared of losing everything or settling in misery. I can't eat and sleep is spotty... I should surrender my cat but "what if I get things fixed?" Well what if I don't? What if I run out of time and everything collapses on top of me and I can't be recovered? What if what if what if what if what if what if what what if.... My head hurts more than my scarred heart does.

[phyerrhed]

I suddenly saw him in the dark

Radiant and glowing

Rarely of importance

His arm stretched wide to envelope all that enter them

His rage yet to be seen. Yet to be heard. Last resort or frequent regular

How my mind has been preoccupied. Dignity and charm for the most part of a year.

Nothing left but to be alone.

I met thus guy for what felt like the first time ever! I worry I'll make the same mistake, but my wisdom and faith tell me I know better. Its impossible to slip by me and under my radar.

[phyerrhed]

I thought I'd be glad. I thought I'd be better.

Tearing apart my skin and growing a new one

Teeth bared and rotted

I never thought it'd be this bad

Yet it's not "bad enough"

I'm trying, pushing, pulling, again and again

Nothing is going anywhere anytime soon

I tread through waste deep waters

Trying to find a way

Pushing through discomfort

Pulling myself from the pits

Again and again

What's the use of crying?

A baby left to their own devastation finds a way

A way through the pain in silence

Acceptance and Defiance

All in the same heartbeat

Growing smaller but wiser under the pressure

I've been working so hard to fix my life. Listening to everyone BUT me... I have a severe tooth ache that they say WILL get worse then I have God saying it'll be fine. Im too tired to be devastated anymore. My tears are tired and so is my heart.

All the while, I still push through. One step at a time. Less people causing me pain in my mind, body, and Spirit. Simplified life. I take my time doing my best and that's more than enough...

[phyerrhed]

About Me

Hello everyone! I go by many names but y'all can call me TII!!

Im 25 years old and a jack of many trades that I typically cycle through depending on my mood.

Drawing

Dancing

Singing

Writing✨

Crotcheting✨

Photography

Fashion

Divination

Shadow Work

There are so many facets of me to embrace and only more to come!!

Still getting my brand together so whoever comes across my work sees me before I get cooler lol

! WARNING!

I AM AN ADULT! Some of my work is intended for legal aged viewers ONLY. I DO NOT consent to underaged users to view said content. I promise

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