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Sayaka! Sayaka, okay so like, let me start off with, I’m an asshole. Like a complete jackass. D’ya remember when we first met n’ I said all those mean things to you n’ called you weak? Man, that was really messed up of me… I-I don’t mean to bring it up again, but.. I gotta say, honestly? I didn’t think you’d make it this far. I’m actually really surprised and really proud of you. God, that sounds weird, huh? Ugh I just wish I wasn’t such a jerk to you back then, I really thought you’d go n’ screw yourself over. You’re really cool, actually… I mean, come to think of it.. I kinda envy you and your life, you’ve got parents who give a shit about you, you’ve got friends who really care about you, Mami-san teamed up with you n’ everything. You’re so damn lucky. Man, who gives a flyin’ fuck about that dumb violin kid? He was a jerk and he didn’t deserve you anyway… Right? Shit I keep bringing up all sorts’a things.. Good thing I’m not sendin’ this right? Anyways, Sayaka, what I really want to say is thanks. Thanks for all the good times, ya know? Thanks for bein’ a really good friend n’ all. I really appreciate it even though sometimes ya think I’m just here to bum food off’a ya. I mean, thanks for that too, I realize I can be kinda abrasive n’ pushy. -Mami-san tells me that a lot haha. But I mean.. I dunno… I dunno how to explain it, ya know? It’s like I want to be around you cuz you just kinda make things feel better? Does that even make sense? You just got this like thing about you… I feel like sometimes between you, Mami and Madoka I can kinda tell you guys pretty much anything.. That’s friendship, right? Come on kyoko, your’re actin’ like an idiot who’s up too late again. Hahaha. But yeah, I dunno there’s sonmethin’ about you that I can’t quite write into words, I mean if I did it’d be somethin’ like sghdfugihgajkfropafj. But I don’t think that’s a feelin’ haha. Ugh.. It’s been a year now.. You’d think the nightmares of the past would go away ya know? They didn’t.. They just keep gettin’ worse n’ worse.. I don’t know what to do anymore.. Miki, I really gotta say somethin’ to you someday though.. I think.. I dunno.. I dunno if you ever feel this but.. D’ya ever feel like there might be somethin’ between us? Y’know kinda like some kinda push or pull on fate? I kinda feel tied to you sometimes… I-It’s not a magical girl thing, it’s.. Different… I feel it with you and Mami-san.. Like…We’re were we’re meant to be together or somethin’… Like y’know our paths were all supposed to cross. That sounds so fuckin’ strange.. Maybe I should just go get some sleepin’ pills or somethin’ I keep stayin’ up late n’ doin this every night. Then I sit here n’ delete this massive wall a’ text. I feel so stupid sayin’ all this cheesy and stupid personal junk. Ugh.. I’m just really dumb, ya know? Anyway I’m gonna delete all this now.
SHIT, MIKI, I AM SO SORRY I DIDN’T MEAN TO SEND THAT! PLEASE DON’T READ IT PLEASE? FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! I fuckin’ stayed up all fuckin’ night and wrote a really long stupid fuckin thing, shit.. Please don’t read it it’s really fuckin’ stupid ugh…
I’ll see ya tomorrow, I guess. ugh…