Unfortunately, time changed, it has been passing away through my fingers last 3 years, idk what I should do now so it won't happen further. But it is how it is.
Like, no matter how it was going if after it became to nothing. This is what happened to me. I am that guy, who works that hard and that much, so he never have time to anything else. Catch up with friends, watch some films, read a book, at least go for a walk for whole day without any reason. All my life - just my work, nothing more. I do not worry about that, I love my work. I'm really like to solving all that problems, changing text size from 25 to 30 a hundred times just for fun, drawing sleeves tatt-designs by style which don't really compares to me, figuring out how works insta algorithms, so when and how I need to make a post or film a reels, and like where i can get some time to make all content for a month further, just cause i can't do it daily and like... No, ofc I love all that, I just a bit under the wave now. It's hard to admit that, but it's true, so I'm trying to stay independent and in stability. But I feel how this thin ice starting to cracking and broking under my legs. Dunno how much time I have left before the deep will eat me.
I'm strong, I'm trying my best. Maybe I can handle that. Maybe not...
