Recent thoughts
Lately I've been thinking a lot about myself as a person. I've scrolled through my tumblr day after day after day. I find myself always wanting to be one of those bloggers who has a following, who people can relate to, who want to read what I write, or want to post relative discussions. Time after time I find myself writing down little snippets of my life but it never exceeds a page and never makes it anywhere other than a flash drive. But as I scroll through my tumblr, I find that I am tired of letting certain aspects of my life control me. I want to be healthier: eat healthier, work out, be healthier. But I find myself using the same excuse time and time again. After surgery, I will. After surgery, because then I can see the results I want to see. After surgery, because then I can walk around shirtless and the world can also see my results. No more of that. But time and time again for I say that, I will do it this time, no giving up, starting today blah blah blah. And every. Single. Time. I fail. I do one or two days and then completely stop. I'm tired of failing. I want to succeed. I don't want to keep saying what I'm going to do. I want to actually do it. I just dont know how. But I want to figure it out, and I'm making it my goal to do that this month. To figure out how I can succeed. And to keep succeeding and to better myself. I can do this. I will do this. I believe in me. You should believe in you too, no matter what your goal is, you can do it. I believe in you.