What does 2014 hold?
Okay, so the past few years have just completely sucked for me & most of it was self induced. Filled with loneliness & self harm. I want to make it better & I have to think that there is more for me out there. I want to fall so erratically in love with someone & experience true sappy romance. Share memories, explore the town even though there is not much to explore, but if it's the right person, who knows what we'd find. I want that spark back in my life. The one I carried with me that would light up a whole room. I don't want my old thoughts to takeover like a disease again. I want to go on an adventure. One so much so, that I gain a whole new perspective on life. & I just don't want to be stuck feeling left in the cold ever again. As long as no one leaves my side I have no reason to be scared to let them in my life. I want to share my life with someone because my parents are old & can't do things adventuresome anymore & don't want to do it. Every time I pray I am going to pretend God is listening this time. maybe I'd be worthy enough.