𝙱𝚎 𝙰𝚕𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 : 𝚃𝚒𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚎 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚝
↳ 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵 : 702 (without lyrics)
↳ 𝘴𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : you and Timothee have a tender moment while in his apartment
↳ 𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 : kinda cute and hopefully it makes sense :) enjoy!
↳ 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘦 : nasa
midnight shadows
When finding love is a battle
But daylight is so close
So don't you worry 'bout a thing
Timothee and I had been together for a while now although I always worried if he wasn’t feeling the same way I was about our relationship or him healing from a past lover. Today, me and Timothee were in his apartment and I knew I had to bring this up either now or never.
Me and Timothee sit together on the dark coloured couch as we get comfortable to view the TV and the darkly lit New York lights. I think about Timothee if he thinks differently when I’m gonna start the conversation. It seemed easy in my head but harder to physically make the words come out.
The night was growing darker and darker. I readjust my body and sit up as timothee doesn’t bother looking. I start the conversation “timothee, are we.... ok?”. He also readjusts his posture and responds “yeah, of course baby, why?”. I answer him hesitantly “just cause you’re my first real boyfriend and I don’t know what I’m doing or if I’ll fuck it up. I just worry and I don’t wanna hurt you-“.
We're gonna be alright
Hey
We're gonna be alright
Hey
He cuts me off by saying “hey, baby. Don’t you worry about a thing. I’m here for you and you never need to worry about me. Ok?” And his large arms wrap around me, embracing my body with a hug. As we continue hugging, he rubs his hand up and down my back covered by my thick hoodie. I get a little emotional with my eyes tearing up from timothees reassurance.
Shortly, he unravels his large arms from around my body and places his hands on my upper arm and says “I love you baby. You don’t need to worry about a thing, I’ve got you. We’ll be alright”. I smile as I look down from his eyes. He smiles too as I look up at him again.
He notices my eyelashes looking like I was crying which I was but I didn’t want timothee to see that. He wipes my cheek with the pad of his thumb and says “where’s that smile I like to see?” Which his intention was making me smile which he knew would make me smile. I quietly laugh and smile as timothee does the same.
Baby, don't you know
All o'them tears gon' come and go
Baby you just gotta make up your mind
That every little thing is gonna be alright
We go into another hug but more confortably and less tense due to my nerves. He closes his eyes while resting his head on my shoulder with a smile on my face. He yet again rubs his hand up and down my back making me comfortable, internally. This moment felt like no other. This felt like time had stood still and we were the only people in the world.
The moment ended shortly after as timothee picked his head up again and looked at me deeply into my eyes. The darkness in his eyes were as dark as the night sky in New York. His skin although fair, tanned from his time in hot places like L.A. and his freckles perfectly placed like stars.
His dark curls defined from his shampoo and his loosely worn shirt hanging off the corner of his shoulder, letting the end of his collarbone shine through. His hands were always soft and tender when it come to touching me or holding hands. He was just a beautiful person, inside and out.
In slow motion
Can't seem to get where we're going
But the hard times are golden
'Cause they all lead to better days
Timothee had made me a better person. His kindness made me realise that everything is deserving of something nice. His happiness made me realise that I only live once and do things that make me happy. His passion made me think that I shouldn’t make anyone else happy and do things that make me happy.
The overall process of being with timothee was amazing and taught me things and vice versa. He wasn’t one of those boyfriends that changed me completely that I didn’t know who I was or making me a mould for his satisfaction. He made my days better and excited for the future of us.
While amid my thoughts, timothee said “days like these make us realise the brighter days are better and make us happy.”. He was always wise in certain situations. He continues “they’ll be better days. More bright, more golden. It’ll get that smile shinin” as we both laugh.