winter ❄️
it’s winter inside my soul again, after
broken pieces of my past linger floating around
I look up to the sky, exhaling a cold cloud of freezing breath
the stars line up, and I read out your name
I shake my head, ignoring the way my body trembles, and I use the cold as excuse
my fingers caress the side of my arm, my soul freezing cold and my body soon catching up with its temperature
by now, I’ve accepted
that this is how it should be, then
I hear a sound, too faint, to catch my full
attention
but persistent enough to make me look for it
I found my phone that I’ve neglected for a while now and see the contact who’s been trying to reach me
it spells your name, like the stars did too
my face heats up, and a fragment of my soul unfreezes
I pick up, your warm voice gets my heart beating stronger and faster, once again breaking their
ice cage
you tell me things that sound like sweet nothings
as my eyes’ frozen blue unmelt
“I want to see you”
I blurt out, my heart immediately punishing me
for saying out loud my desires, you laugh, which
my heart took as an offence itself
your laugh: that was too precious for my
own sanity,
and too melodic for my
cold heart’s liking
“I want to see you too”
you said, clearly, sound piercing my mind and heating me to the core
“let me go see you”
you say once more, my heart tries to warn me
that I should decline your offer
my soul tries it’s best to get back to winter
Isn’t it to soon for it to end?
“can I?”
you repeated, seems that I’m taking too long to answer
no
my heart whispers
“Yes”
I whisper
I could feel your smile from the other side of the line as you thanked me and hung up, I can’t believe I’m going to see you
it’s been a while
and my insides are going crazy to have you
close
twenty eternal minutes passed by as
finally three knocks on the front door were heard
I inhale a shaky breath and exhale an even more hesitant one
I was nervous, my heart was mad, and my soul was on fire
I opened up and saw you standing there, wearing your beautiful smile and the same jeans and hoodie you always wear
“hey”
“hey”
you walked in, and as soon as the door was closed behind us, you embraced me from behind
My face was red, as your hands grasped me
“I’ve been thinking...”
you started
my winter felt in danger, it wasn’t cold, it felt rather fresh
“...about you”
winter seemed to unfreeze faster and faster, trees were no longer dead, they were recovering their leaves and their green colour
“about us...”
I shivered, as the last winter breeze hit me in the neck in form of your breath
“and I think, that you’re way too special for me
I want to make you happy”
everything started blooming inside, winter was no longer present, it was gone, small traces of melted snow in the grass was all that was left
“if you’d let me...
I’d love to be together for as long as destiny
wants us to be”
winter faded completely, bringing Spring along the warmest feeling I have ever experienced
“I want to take away your Winter
and only bring you Spring.”
a sunflower wrapped around my heart as it pulsed with intense, teenager feelings and impulses
the sunflower bloomed and pointed at you, and I knew what that means
“You’re my sun. You take away my winter
and bring the most stunning spring.”
I said, turning around, looking into your eyes and
smiling at you
you smiled back and the sunflower tightened around my heart
your left hand was brought up to coup my right cheek, holding my face in place so you can bloom tiny flowers around my face
kiss on the cheek
kiss on the nose
kiss on the forehead
kiss here
kiss there
and finally, you reached my lips, trapping them between your own
the hottest feeling my soul has been ever been submitted to
I grab you closer to feel you even nearer
within a few minutes our kiss end, but our evergreen spring started
that’s how my winter ended and our love which we named Spring, began.
