#tinydiary

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okay now that maintenance may is over, the real summer of starvation starts today

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why do i have a headache?? *undereating every day* *not taking my medication* oh well, at least im hydrated

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i do have my thigh gap back now and well, ive been so elated that ive just maintained for the last month... need the scale going down again

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have been doing pretty decent in general but i think ive hit the point where im not going to weigh myself until i get my period bc i woke up so bloated

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should be very easy to let my self hate fuel me rn haha

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back to being so scared to weight myself and im so frustrated

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need too be in deficit today, too many days of not counting have gone by now

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sure ive basically been maintaining which is okay, i was at a new lw the last time i weighed but it's been pms time ever since and it feels pointless to weigh myself again before im not bloated and have actually taken a shit