getting my thigh gap back

TW ed/sh/si 🤍 sideblog 🤍 no minors

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okay now that maintenance may is over, the real summer of starvation starts today

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why do i have a headache?? *undereating every day* *not taking my medication* oh well, at least im hydrated

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i do have my thigh gap back now and well, ive been so elated that ive just maintained for the last month... need the scale going down again

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have been doing pretty decent in general but i think ive hit the point where im not going to weigh myself until i get my period bc i woke up so bloated

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should be very easy to let my self hate fuel me rn haha

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back to being so scared to weight myself and im so frustrated

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need too be in deficit today, too many days of not counting have gone by now

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sure ive basically been maintaining which is okay, i was at a new lw the last time i weighed but it's been pms time ever since and it feels pointless to weigh myself again before im not bloated and have actually taken a shit

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down 1lb yesterday which felt good, just need to keep it going, no sweets today

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maintained this past week and that's okay

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didn't weigh myself this morning, but i have to trust that progress is happening, i miss the way my hip bones used to jut out, but i know it's not coming back overnight

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weighed myself yesterday and im 10lbs more than i was three years ago, and 10lbs less than i was four months ago, so we're in a decent place... aiming to see more steady progress over the next week

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didn't update for a bit because i was too suicidal to care about anything, but starving has been feeling great lately

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woo! okay binge drank and got sick over the weekend, took a couple days to recover, am about to get my period, but still at a decent weight 🙏 even though everything else is a mess, im getting my old body back

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did pretty well today, mostly veggies and protein, but i did have 140cals of dessert i couldn't stop myself from 🙃 should still be in deficit tho

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did well today, pretty sure i kept a deficit, tho counting was hard... i'll make sure im absolutely sure tomorrow