Dec 9, 2014
everything is very dull and im desensitized to a lot of things rn and last night when my bf fell asleep i laid awake for hours running my hands through his hair wondering how much longer i can pretend im perfectly fine and he kept runnin his hands over old scars and i was scared he felt those few newer cuts and when he says im funny and weird i want to cry with happiness but im spinning a strong web of lies i have been for many years now im so tired these four lil blue pills ain't what i need but they're all i have:/