#to joel

[munsonstorm]

i’m doing a fic rec list this month!! since it’s the middle of the year, i’ll be recapping my fic faves thus far! should be posted today or tomorrow 😚

[cheekylittletimelord]

We need to talk 

not because I've decided that I can live without you

but because I've decided I can't

because the sound of your voice is 

somehow able to make my heart beat faster

because your hands on mine can

make the pain of my skin

go away

because your smile

is the last thing my eyelids reflect

before i lose consciousness

because

one day

you're going to sleep through the night

not because you're all better

but because I'm by your side

and you are by mine

[dreamwaterbaby]

To Joel

So i know we didnt get to spend all that much time together but it was still one of the best days ive had with you in awhile despite all we had to do.Being able to do things like cook dinner together and watch tv all cuddled up together and just laying in your room wrapped up in each other with my favorite music on is what i love to do with you. I really dont know why i ended up crying other that i was so happy.Laying there with you with the music on and being covered in the blankets being able to look at you and feel like were the only two people in the world or that youre the only one who matters is what took me by surprise, it kinda just hit me that i get to spend the rest of my life with you doing things like that, things where i can lay with you and not be bothered with the outside world if i dont want to, that i dont have to get up if i dont want to. i can just be with you for as long as i want and it wont matter because your whats important. But i also got an overwhelming feeling of just how much i love you and i cant even begin to explain how much that is but i wish i could, i so wish i could. feeling that much love for you never really happens to me even though i could never tell you how much i love you :P im just rambling now since i cant think of how to say this but i just want you to know that i love you so much, more then you'll ever know or words will be able to describe and i just wish i could fully describe it but i hopefully one day i will be. i always think about how i get to do all these things with you because hopefully we'll be together forever but it just hardly ever hits me like it did today. never have i felt so much like i was married to you but i did and it was an amazing feeling. i just hope you know how much you mean to me and how much i love you and how much i cant wait until i can say im married to you so that i can do all these things with you and they never have to end because youll be mine forever and i can be just as wrapped up in you as i want to. your the best thing thats ever happened to me and i couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. i always feel so safe when im with you and loved and thats all ive ever really wanted, i never thought it would happen but it did and im so glad it did, you make everything so much better know matter what you tell yourself :P i am so in love with you and i just hope you know.

                                                                          -i love you