list of things to do since i feel all motivated and content rn
get new piercing on saturday!!! even if you have to kick your step-dad's ass or get the bus and go yourself get. it. done!!! you've been waiting far too long DONE
put all money in bank and order hair dye!!!! then text sister-in-law to see when she's available and go down and gET YO MUTHAFUCKIN HAIR DID
maybe possibly maybe if you have money (you do) buy a new binder that's much more comfortable and fucking wear it!!!! ignore any comments your mother has to say about it!!! you're 17 stop being afraid of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAKE CHASE GIVE YOU THEIR ADDRESS AND EMAIL FOR THE NEAREST FLOWER SHOP AND BUY THEM THE BIGGEST BUNCH OF FLOWERS YOU CAN COMPLETE WITH CHEESY MESSAGE ON THE CARD!!!!!!!!!! you've been a shitty gey and they've been gr8 so treat them!!!!!!!!! also skype them and go be dumbasses on RO or minecraft or whatever vuv!
go to hobbycraft and get supplies to make cute decorations for room and maybe buy a couple of shelves!!! also get a jar and some glitter and make a few feelings jars!!!
bUY PAINT TO PAINT ROOM
GET NEW DUVET COVERS
START EATING HEALTHY AND GET A GYM MEMBERSHIP AND GO EVERYDAY FOR AT LEAST TWO HOURS
GET. AN. APPOINTMENT. WITH. THE. DOCTOR. eating healthy and exercising and changing your hair will not automatically cure you!!!!! you will have low days and yes you more than likely will wish that you were dead or want to harm yourself at some point in the coming months, exercise or not. the most important thing right now is to focus on yourself; even if it is exam time. just get an appointment and talk to someone. if you do not manage this it's fine!!! speak to chase or robyn or anyone and watch let's plays and laugh or wrap yourself in blankets and eat junk food and skip the gym for the day do whatever will make yourself better!!!! just stay away from the mirror while you feel like that and try not to claw the skin off of your legs again! also stay away from the scalpel actually get someone to take those away that would be a good idea;;;;
STUDY AND NOT STRESS OVER EXAMS!!!!!! don't study for 20 hours everyday though! study for the amount of time you would be in school for with the appropriate breaks and only go over that time if you feel like you need it!! remember to ask for help and even take a trip into school and ask teachers to mark practice essays or exam papers!!! if a friend is taking the same subject study with them and ask them for help on things and help them if they ask you!!! and remember it may not look like it but if you use your time wisely you will have plenty of time to do all of the above; just don't procrastinate or waste time or stress and do not plan anything other than studying the day before exams!!! that means no gym either!!! also do not stay up late except on weekends so that you can take in all of the revision!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay ye i'm done it's just a list for myself
i may not do everything on the list any time soon i just kind of
