I WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE.
It hurts knowing that i’m being left out already. I can’t improve myself. Everyone is just suddenly on their way to reaching their goals but i’m just here lying on my bed, ranting about all my laziness and complaining about being so unproductive since vacation started (kahit pala the school year was ongoing). Like all of them are always too busy having their *trainings. One has just had his rehearsals in a dance group and he was recruited right away because he was just that good. And he’s just so happy he can’t help but tell me about it. Earlier he just said that he already has a gig next tuesday. I am seriously happy about their achievements and i’m complaining not about them leaving me behind but me not doing anything to join them in achieving goals. I WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE. I WANT TO DO ART. I WANT TO DANCE. I WANT TO SING. I WANT TO WRITE. I WANT TO BE FIT. I WANT TO READ. I WANT TO DO SO MANY THINGS BUT WHY ISN’T MY BODY ALLOWING ME?!!!!?! Sometimes this is the reason why I just wish I was my friends. Cause all of them are like so capable of doing many things, making their parents and friends proud, they workout, they do poems and read and read and read, they dance, they sing. PAANO / KAMUSTA NAMAN AKO?!!!?!! 😖 >>>>SO, I AM DOING THIS FOR ME AND ME AND ME AND ME! -I will put more time into painting. -I will workout and try to BE FIT. (atleast try noh) -I will improve my singing & dancing skills (even if there are none, kidding. Thank You Lord for the talents!). -I will read books and write more hereeee! 😊 *Atleast one naman sana magawa ko. Jeskepe Lord.* I-PUSHHHHH ITUUUU!!!!