Jul 4, 2017
Happy Forest
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Happy Forest
I will not allow my disease to control or manipulate me.
You're the only one who can do this. Embrace the path you've chosen and allow yourself to love who you are.
My eating disorder does not define me. I do not deserve punishment and pain. I can and will recover.
Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them. And filling an emptiness we didn’t even know we had.
I am living a story, but I don’t love every chapter.
I wonder what it’s like to feel safe.
I miss you, I miss your touch, I miss your sarcastic remarks, I miss being wanted by you. I miss the laughs, I miss the nights that I woke up not remembering, I don’t miss lying to everyone about you. I don't miss living in a lie, I don't miss continuing to still lie about you and what you've done, I don't miss you bringing me down, I don’t miss staying up waiting for you to call me, I don't miss getting in the car with you after you drank more than your body weight. I don't miss wondering who else you were with, I don’t miss being brought to tears, I don’t miss being taken advantage of. But I miss the way you made me smile, I miss the way you made me feel on my worst days. I miss being treated like I am worth more than sex. I miss you but I don't miss the way you treated me. I thought about calling you again today but instead I called my advocate and I was reminded that I'm not alone and that I'm not crazy. That it's okay to want to go back to him but remembering what that really means and remembering why I stopped entertaining him in the first place. I was reminded that getting out of an abusive relationship is kind of like quitting smoking ciggarettes, it's hard and you crave it but once you go back you remember all the horrible things about it and why you stopped. I don't want to lose more people in my life because of you, I don’t want to get even more sick because of you. I want to thrive and get healthy, two things I couldn't do with you in my life. Fuck I hate that I met you, and I hate that I wouldn't change falling for you. I hate that I loved you, you are a narcissist who never cared about me. All you cared about was yourself, I was a game to you.