#toletitout

[raphaelius2305]

#iDontHide ... #MyTrueFeelings ... #TheBestWay ... #ToLetItOut ... #JustCryItOut ... (at Subang Jaya) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXyqD2kPBHo1ykhMuGeRv4n_hkC_DUQB-zZ2ec0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[onedayiwilltouchthestars]

2018 goals

1.Learn to be alone (it's better to be alone than to spend time with the wrong people) 2.Don't punish yourself 3.Don't expect yourself to be perfect all the time 4.Art never comes from pressure 5.Love never comes with conditions 6.Accept that some people don't love you 7.Accept that some of them actually do -I was used to being with people all the time.To talking to people every day.To never have to confront loneliness.But these days it's necessary.For the first time in my life, there is no one to call.No one to write messages to.Loneliness became my worst enemy and my biggest fear as soon as I wake up in the morning.I found a lot of things I actually hated about myself but never had time to give them attention.Now there was no escape, I was forced to see all the garbage, all the shit I carried around for so long.All the fears, all the trauma, all the horror that I forgot happened.I hope in 2018 I will heal completely.Maybe I will finally be mentally healthy all the time.Maybe I will find some people that will understand how fragile my mind is, maybe they will allow me to understand theirs. Maybe it will all work out fine and maybe not. But I hope there is some reason why all of this happened.Why I am who I am after all. I'm sorry I'm not who I thought I am.

[im-a-band-slut]

I need somebody to talk to right now, I'm dreading going back to school even more right now, schools supposed to be about education instead of 'friends' causing you to have anxiety attacks and making you feel like shit. I really hate the thought of going back and it's killing me and the worse thing is I have nobody to talk to about it because anyone I talk to I'll just be bothering. For fucks sake why am I such a stupid Piece of shit?