I am 26 years old and still stuck I am able to find a job and get back on my feet what the fuck is wrong with me when I can't commit to a job and yet hate where I am with the full option in the world. I need to grin and bare it so I can move forward. The thing is I want to be more than the job I will take soon, I don't want to be stuck there wishing or hoping something better will come along I need to get that way on my own it is just the step or so the leap of faith. I have been trying to stay sober, along without self harming. I can't just stop looking back at my mistakes, the ones I hurt, the ones who hurt me. and the loss of loved ones, or ones that I fell in love with it is isn't what I can do like others. What the fuck do I do? How can I do it? Can't just be fucking normal and move forward like everyone who fights and kicks ass in the end.