#tomuchonmymind

[nothinificanhelpit]

#sleeplessnight #tomuchonmymind

[doublecup-boyz]

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[ciny821]

I wake up from another night of terrible sleep. I grab my phone and get on Instagram, it's the only way I can see a photo of you I deleted all of mine. I try to skip over most recent ones of you. One because I don't need to see your happiness with someone else, it doesn't hurt as much as it did but I'm still not ok with it. Two because I don't know the person in those photographs, you've changed. I look at at the photos from around the time I met you which now seems so long ago. I miss that girl in my life. Blonde hair, blue eyes and a smile that could stop me in my tracks. That girl was beautiful. She was breath taking. She was mine. I look at the photos of us and recall the memory's like they were yesterday. I miss those times with you. I try to block out the negative, focus on the positive, and remember the good. I get to the end of the photos my heart can handle looking at and look at the next few. Who is this girl? I wonder is this who you were all along and I missed it blinded by foolishness? You don't seem to have that same light in your eyes any more. Your smile doesn't seem as big any more. I don't like looking at these photos I don't know the person in these photos and that hurts. I don't know you any more maybe I never truly did. I miss you the you I knew. I hold on to it hoping one day you'll come back. But you never will. Your to far gone and I messed up to much. So I'll just hold on to these memory's and look at these photos every now and then and remember what was.