Mike Driver
YOU ARE THE REASON
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@ciny821
I deleted the pictures, Hid the shirts and Took down the baseball tickets. I turn off the station when hunter Hayes comes on, Turn it up when Pink comes on, and Cry when Kip Moore comes on. My heart races when I pass your old house, stops when I see you and hurts no matter what.
I miss the days I would chase the sun along back roads, music playing, the windows rolled down letting the evening chill in. My camera would be siting in the seat next to me waiting for me to find that perfect moment that needed to be captured just like a memory. Making unknown turns, dipping in Valleys and climbing up hills trying go guess the suns next move. Flipping through the stations, changing CDs, searching for the perfect song. I could spend all day out there a couple tanks of gas in search of this moment, these moments. I was never sure if was chasing the sun or the last of my thought out of my head. But I needed that sun as bad as my camera needed that moment.
Who I am
Who am I I am a Boy trapped in a females body I am a girl trapped in a boys mind I am a traveler who hasn't seen the world I am an outdoor lover who enjoys a good book. I am a dom who is looking for a sub I am bottom who is looking for a top I am a cowboy who is Looking for his cowgirl I'm an adventure who is introverted I am cocky while being shy I am a manger that needs training I am friend without a lot of friends
The song comes on and before I know it the characters in my head are dancing to their pre choreographed dance. Each time it's slightly different as they prefect the dance to this tragic love story. No matter what I do I can't get them to stop they must play this out to till the end. Each time a little different but the end is the same. The song is over and they stop dancing vanish back into the shadows of my mind not to return till the song play again.
I hate how I've changed my whole life because I lost you. I hate how I do shit because I have to now that your not around. I hate that I miss you being there to help me so I didn't always have to do thing I hate. I hate my job. I have never wanted to quit some thing so damn bad in my life. I hate that I leave more times unhappy and crying then I do leaving happy and like what I did mattered. I feel like nothing I do here is good enough and I can't do any of it right. I miss my IHOP job. I would live in a box to have that job back but that's not possible and this job pays to damn well to quit even if I leave crying. I hate that I know if you were in my life you wouldn't make me stay there. I hate that I could come home crying to you and know I would get a hug instead I'm worried I'll look weak. I hate that I miss my friends and family and feel alone but won't move back. I hate that I feel like I won't make it in the real world with out you. I hate thinking about my life with out you. I hate that I don't think il ever find someone that wants kids and will let me stay home and take care of them. I hate that I don't think I'll ever find all the good things I had with you. I hate that i don't think I'll ever let these people in like I did you. I hate that I made this huge change and walked away but now I'm unhappy and won't do it again
Imagen the last time you had a situation come up that made you get inside your head and start analyzing it. You pick apart this situation, you think about how it effects you, how it makes you feel, how other people involved will feel, what your reaction should be. You think about all these things and pick it apart playing different scenarios in your head trying to figure this out. Finally after some time has passed you call,text,email what have you, your friend, your go to person that knows your life and how your mind works, you start to talk this situation over with them. You lay it all out. You tell them all your different thoughts and they know most of them already because they understand you. Together you work this situation out until it is no longer weighing in your mind. You feel better because you got it out. You are am thankful for that person. Now image a life with out that person. With out anyone around like that. With someone that knows your life and how you think and your problems really before you even speak. Imagine working that situation with out talking to that person. Imagine what it would be like to have that still weighing on your mind. That is what it's like to be me. That is what it's like in my head. A million situation replying over and over just dying to get out but I am unable to find the words to speak them and the ear willing to listen to them.
This is my home this is where I belong. I know these roads like I know my vains. My heart beats to the sounds of the city. My mind races like five o'clock traffic on the turn pike. This is my home this is where I belong.
We ask questions we don't want the answers to. Speak words we don't know the meaning of. do actions we don't understand the repercussions of. Search for the "truth" we will misinterpret. Read between the lines that aren't there. Look for flaws in perfection. We Set our selfs up for failure while fighting to be on top.
The music isn't loud enough. The heat isn't warm enough. The cigarette doesn't burn strong enough. The car won't move fast enough. I'm can't drawn out the voices. I can't fill the void. I can't calm down. I can't slow down. I'm lost without a Map. I need to speak but don't have a voice. Need someone to talk to but no one can listen. Need a place to store my secrets but they fall out of everyone's mouths. I can't clear my head. I can't find the words. I can't explain the feelings.
-A kid! That's what I feel like. A little boy still finding his way Still following daddy's footsteps Still trying to find his way Still learning the world -a teenager That's what I feel like A H.S. Boy still learning the ropes Still unsure how to talk to a girl Still learning right from wrong Still searching for the man inside. -A man That's what I want to feel like A Man that Is confident in himself A man that is confident in life A man that leads by example like his dad That's what I want to be.
When I looked into your eyes I didn't see you. When I hugged you I didn't feel you. When you said "I love you" I didn't believe you. I don't know you any more. Yes, I fell in love with someone else. She wasn't you. She didn't look like you. She didn't sound like you. She didn't love like you. She didn't trust like you. I fell in love with someone that wasn't you. But I don't know you anymore. I missed you. I cried for you. I begged for you. But I don't know you anymore. In the middle of the night I reach out for you. In a crowded room I search for you. When I'm alone I cry for you. But I don't know you any more.
Call me old fashion but "love" isn't a word I throw into every relationship. It's a word I only use when meant. When I love you it doesn't go away of night or in a week that's why it's "love". Call me mean but I don't tell a girl she's beautiful unless she's beautiful. Girls can be hot or sexy with out being beautiful. When I tell a girl she's beautiful it probably means her beauty can take my breath away. Call me crazy but when I'm in a relationship I'm in it for the long haul. Not for the night, week or till something better comes long I'm in it until the end. Call me old school but I believe when we get into a fight you shouldn't run to Facebook you should run to your bestfriend. Nothing kills a relationship faster then letting everyone else in it.
Cars are flying by my mind is racing and so is heart. I turn on my turn signal and switch lanes I can't keep up. Life is passing me by I'm drowning. I take a deep breath grab for my smokes I need to calm my nerves. In hales the toxin exhale the worries it's helping but barely. I turn up the music to block out my thoughts and before I know it I'm crying drowning in my tears I'm lost. Turn on my turn signal, throw out my smoke and pull off the road. I'm lost while life of passing me by. I'm drowning in my own thoughts. I'm lost I can't keep up.
Marry someone who lets you have a bite of their brownie, even when you said you weren’t hungry. Marry someone who laughs at the same things you do. Marry someone who kisses your nose on a cold day. Marry someone who you can watch Disney movies with. Marry someone who is proud of you whether you earn £5 a week or £5,000 a week. Marry someone who you can tell everything to. Marry someone who isn’t afraid or embarrassed to hold your hand in public. Marry someone who lets you take over when decorating a cake. Marry someone who you can spend the day in Ikea with without feeling stressed. Marry someone who wraps you up inside their coat in the winter. Marry someone who accepts your fears and phobias. Marry someone who gives you butterflies every time you hear their key in the door. Marry someone who you don’t always have to shave your legs for. Marry someone who accepts you all day every day, even when you don’t look or feel your best. Marry someone who puts three sugars in your tea, despite telling them “just the two”. Marry someone who doesn’t judge you when you eat your body weight in cookies. Marry someone who doesn’t make you want to check your phone, because you know they will reply. Marry someone who waits with you to get on the train. Marry someone who understands that you need to be alone sometimes. Marry someone who gets on well with your parents and isn’t uptight about family events. Marry someone who calms you down when you get mad about stupid stuff, and never tells you it’s “only stupid stuff”. Marry someone who makes you want to be a better person. Marry someone who makes you laugh. Marry someone who you love. Marry your soulmate, your lover, your best friend.
(via forever-and-alwayss)
holy shit. this is perfect.
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Let me be your someone.
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I can feel myself slipping. I'm letting go of my grip. I've worked so hard to get back to the top but there is no way i can make it back again. I've been running with shades on. Lying, cheating, hoping, once I get to the top it will be better but it's not. No matter how close I get my Demons are right there at my heels. I fight, I smile, I lie, I drink, I smoke, they stay. I can't chance them away. I try to fight them but I'm not strong enough. I try to get help but I am to weak to ask. I can't do this. I'm slipping away. I can't reach my best because I'm stuffing my life in a box and hoping it will go away and it won't. But I'm to weak to fix this. I'm not ok. I want to let go. I need to let go.
I'm quite and I don't say much. When disciplined I try not to give excuses or try to defined my self. Most people don't understand me at first and say I'm rude. I've been told they worry I won't be able to do the job because I am a man of few words and sometimes my thoughts are unclear. I have been told I'm to quite when I talk. I have been told that am not precise enough when I dedicate a pretend task to a pretend person. I hate talking. But that's doesn't mean I can't do a job. That just means you won't hear me talk when it's unnecessary. I won't say much until I'm comfortable. My accent makes me stick out and when I'm nervous or excited I stubble over words and mix them up. I don't pronounce a decent amount of words correctly and I don't use a lot of big words. Because of these things I prefer not to talk. I don't like people knowing this. It makes me feel weak. None of that means I can't do a job or be a manger. None of that means I can't dictate tasks to people. It just means I just choose my words carefully and when I choose to say them. It means I won't tell you about my personal life until I'm ready and I won't say much out of the things I have to say to do the job. Just because I don't say much doesn't mean I'm not a hard worker. It doesn't mean I can't do a job. It doesn't mean I'm not cut out to be a manager. It just means I might not fit into your tiny box of things you check off. I know what I'm doing maybe you should quit talking so much about the fact I'm not talking and ask why? If it bothers you so damn much. Other wise I have done this before I not mute I just don't have much to say to you.
Work in progress
Have i ever told you I trust You? Sure I might not tell you a lot right off the bat but I trust you enough to let you see me cry. Have I ever told you I trust you? Remember the night I told you I was to scared to sleep, so you stayed on the phone till I fell asleep? Have I ever told you I miss you? Yeah I text you all the time but remember when I was away and I told you I couldn't stop thinking about you and asked for a million pictures. Have I ever told you I miss you? Remember that time I drove all that way to come just to see your smile for a few seconds? Have I ever told you, you were the one? No I didn't buy you a ring and get down on one knee but I thought about giving you my ring when the moment was right. Have I ever told you, you were the one? No we didn't always see eye to eye but I loved that you challenged me. Have I ever told you, you were beautiful? No I might not if came out and said it all the time but you always caught me staring at you. Have I ever told you, you were beautiful? Remember how I walk up behind you and put my arms around you. Have I ever told you I loved you? No maybe I wasn't the first person to say it. But damn could I feel it you gave feelings I could deny. Have I ever told you I loved you? Maybe I did, you just didn't see it.
