@malumxsubest sent a minion: Juliet | Human | Power | Loneliness (for headcanons omg i love you)
loneliness.
i’ll start right to left this time around, because i’ve actually already written a thing about loneliness because it’s such a huge part of who crowley is & without feeling lonely crowley would never have gotten close to the winchesters, really & he’d most likely still be alive being fabulous.
power.
crowley’s hunger & need for power actually goes hand-in-hand with this, because for the longest time he believed that power would make all that hurt go away. being powerful & strong meant he wouldn’t be alone anymore, because obviously. up to some point it actually worked, because power brought crowley the throne, minions etc., but deep down he’s still always help alone. as a human, he was weak, useless & helpless - so when he became a demon crowley swore he’d never again be that. given that rowena also tried to sell him, i’m pretty sure he felt more than just worthless even before she left him to fend for himself. in crowley’s mind, nothing matters more than power, because if he’s the strongest, he can’t get hurt again, right? if only.
human.
i’ve been able to explore some of that in purified!crowley threads & it’s not a pretty sight at all. crowley is happy as a demon, he’s happy having left humanity behind - emotions (i mean he still feels plenty, so imagine how bad it would be with added guilt etc. as a human) & all that nonsense. becoming human again, weak, mortal & vulnerable is one of crowley’s biggest fears.
juliet.
ending this on a good note. >_> juliet was the smallest & weakest in her litter of hellpups. crowley saw her & immediately fell for her. she stole his heart the second she nuzzled his palm & that will last until the day either of them dies. she’s obviously his favorite, but she’s grown strong & feisty enough to hold up her own against jealous hounds. crowley cuddles with all of them, but she’s the only one allowed in his bed & office.