A letter gav wrote for maya but never sent it (look at me too lazy to log in on my other account 8D)
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I want to forgive you for all the shitty things you’ve done to me.
I don’t know why. Maybe because I think that by forgiving you I’ll then forgive myself for the shitty things I’ve done, and find some peace of mind, while feeling like a better person.
That’s pretty selfish of me.
Sometimes I wonder how we would feel towards each other if all the shit we’ve done, all the torture, the killing, the threats, if none of it ever happened, how would we have turned out?
Would we still hate each other? I don’t know why but I’m comforted by the idea that we would. It’d be one of those shitty rivalry things, where one sibling is no better than the other, but we’re constantly competing to show that we are the best and the other brother needs them. I feel like I could live with that.
I know you’re never going to read this, because I’ll be damned if I ever send your illiterate ass a letter, but I feel better getting these thoughts out there. It gives me hope. I don’t fucking know for what. Maybe it’s the idea that I’ll be able to look at you one day and not thinking about that damn river you plunged my head into until the world turned blue, and then eventually black. Maybe it’s because after all these hundreds of years I’m still holding onto that bitterness about you wanting to be my parent, but never acting like one.
Maybe it’s because I’m afraid we’re too much alike.