The reaction to John Davidson's N word tic at the BAFTAs has been extremely disheartening and given me a little less hope today.
It's awful Michael b. Jordan and Delroy Lindo heard that shouted while they were on stage, and it's ridiculous the BBC didn't edit it out but were able to edit out someone shouting "Free Palestine" in post. We should be able to hold space and acknowledge that hearing that while on stage and having to move past it takes extreme strength and grace that Black people are forced to have and I feel awful they and anyone else had to hear that and believe both Davidson and BAFTA should issue an apology to Jordan, Lindo, and the Black community.
The way the media has centered the situation around allowing Davidson grace instead of empathy and upset for Michael B. Jordan and Delroy Lindo, as well as lack of outrage at BAFTA for not adequately preparing for this scenario by a longer delay to have time to censor. (Though they were able to censor someone saying free palestine)
I only want people to understand that people with tourettes can't control our tics. People with coprolalia do not tic what we are thinking. Coprolalia (offensive tics) often cause the person to say what they fear saying the most. This can look like shouting "I have a bomb" in the airport, or saying "fuck the queen" while meeting the queen of england, something John Davidson has done. Tourette's is involuntary and forces us to say words we would never choose to say. I tell my partner to "kill themself" almost daily. They know I do not mean it, I say it because that's my biggest fear. I am certain that mechanism is the reason John shouted the N slur when he did. If you're asking "how is that in his vocabulary," nearly every white person at some point hears that word and is hopefully told to never use it. This exact scenario is what can create a coprolalic tic.
Tourette's makes you say things you would normally never say, and do things you would normally never do. It does not mean he is secretly thinking it. It does not mean he is racist and is faking it. It does not mean tourette's is just a fake disorder used as a racism excuse.
An apology should be issued, end of. I only want people to also understand what tourette's is and isn't so there can be greater understanding between all communities.












