#tourretts

[circularthoughts]

I am sick of living in the body I have been stuck with. The constant reminders that I am defected. So many people have told me "oh you are so strong!" but im really not. I want one able bodied person to walk just a week in my shoes and maybe they will realize how hard this all is. 

[pizza-with-death-blog]

    URRGh 

I fucking HATE gender disphoric days (shut up i dont CARE if its spelt right or not). I literally want to curl up in a corner and scratch my own skin off with my nails. Thank chuck I only have to go through this every couple of weeks or so. It makes me feel physically sick and want to break down crying when I think that some close friends of mine are most likely feeling like this every day of their lives... I find it difficult  to get through one day every couple of weeks or so like this. Greatest respect to all those who feel like this all the time and are still fighting through it, I think if I felt like this any more often then I do, i'd have given up and killed myself a long time ago. I fucking fucking fucking HATE this feeling. its been making my tics worse. Been having to physically bite my tounge to keep from yelling, and my arm and neck aches from trying to stop the twitching and jerking. just URRGH. I should probably get this suspected tourrets checked out but I seriously cba. Its only noticeable to other people when im stressed, and i normally shut myself away from people when im like that anyway. only my housemate has noticed, and that was only coz i yelped and almost hit her in the face when i failed to suppress it when i was sitting next to her earlier . just fucking urrghhhhhhhh! >:( 

[willpowers]

Rant under the cut

Okay so I was bored and looking around tumblr, and out of curiosity I looked into the tourrettes tag.

Worst mistake of my life.

I have been living with tourrettes all my life and it is a difficult thing to live with, not JUST SHOUTING CURSE WORDS AT RANDOM.

I HATE how the media has portrayed it with tourrettes guy and things like that, because whenever I tell someone I have it, they are all "but you don't cuss all the time..." 

well EXCUSE ME PRINCESS but thats not what tourrettes is, so check your privelages and stop believing everything the media teaches you!

But that isn't what pisses me off the most, no, what really rustles my jimmies is when someone thinks they have tourrettes just because of an outburst they have once. These people know NOTHING of the struggles people who have tourrettes have, and its people like them that are the reason people like me don't get hired because they don't believe that when I pull at my crotch or pick my nose it is INVOULENTARY. I have been bullied for this my whole life, and due to how tourrettes affects the brain, has caused me many other problems. 

Its not just some fad you pick up and self diagnose.

Check.

Your.

Facts.

/endrant

(Dear followers: I'm sorry about the long rant but I had to get this out)

[rachelcecilia856]

AM I SERIOUSLY

the only person left on this god damn shit hole planet who genuinely believes that honesty is the best fucking policy? jesus.

/angertouretts.