#toxictrelationships

[jedilorianempress]

Everybody always leaves..

I swear this is a quote from Shameless that I feel such a great deal with what I’ve been going through in my “midlife crisis” the last few years (also Hello COVID-19 pandemic you didnt help me at all) 

I won’t deny that after I separated myself from Chris - or as I call him the “Asshole Stalker” - It took alot of out of me because I gave everything to him (including my virginity) - and it turns out he took every part of me for that. And with him? It took alot for me to even trust him that way. 

And what happened after I gave him every part of me? He left... just like Stephen did. Just like Aaron did... just like my “Friends had” - everyone had always left me. No matter what. 

But its funny... that there is someone who has stood by my side like Steve had to Fiona, where he (Even though theres alot going on with him too (he hasnt honestly left left me at all... he’s stood by my side and hasnt left) 

There is still a LOT I need to learn about with everything going on with me and my path to healing what is going on with me... what more I need to do to keep working harder on healing myself and loving myself more. 

I’m on a long ass path to recovery...  and it sucks, but i’m not giving up