#toyoufromme

[carlyyyyyyyyyy]

you never forget that 💭

[cinematicmusicgroup]

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[storagewarmachine]

Dear little me,

You started this blog at 12 years old, you were interested in the internet and music and drugs and not boys yet but being beautiful. You never felt beautiful. You had too much facial hair and leg hair. And you were horribly awkward. But you were so kind and had such a deeply private world. You would go the next 6 years of your life diving into it deeply, looking back it was not so bad but man did you suffer internally. Unrequited love, parental frustrations, sublime responsibilities on your shoulders all of it. You would go on to take on even more this time falling deeply in love, being at the precipice of it all, Persephone style. You still think about your first love. It feels terrible and bittersweet you feel lucky to have been loved the way you were, you feel ashamed of how shadowy it became regardless. You had a year of curiosity and exploration, found a light sun who was dark inside and a black sun who was pure light. He was into death a lot, and monsters, Roberto Bolaño and painting. He was older. He was kind. You found yourself alone in Mexico and then again never alone. Then you met him. He was an experience. You’re still riding the rollercoaster now. It’s always been uncertain in some way and you prefer it this way. He’s taught you patience, tolerance, kindness. A different way of seeing the world. Gentleness. The value and importance of creativity and an artistic life. He is everything. And he is nothing still. Your sweet companion.

All the while your world is spinning. New, so much new. Then there is him. He is so strong and so badly abused by his own mind. But he is absolutely gorgeous, you never thought a man like that could exist. He is large and red and beautiful you wrote him poems in another life, or worse you meditated together, or took vows of silence. You miss him even when you’re with him. You’re starting to feel like no relationship is better than a friendship. But you value him too much, you wonder if he knows how important he is to you. And you wonder if he feels the same way somewhere in that thick fog.

You’ve tried so much and failed so much. People pay to talk to you (somehow!) but it still doesn’t feel like IT, like there’s still more. There’s something else, something that’s unrevealed and waiting to unravel. You never want this feeling to go away. You notice yourself get older, the lines on your face. The world feels more bleak than before, less possibilities but all of them too are open now. More open than before. Has all the time been wasted? Always wondering, curious about it. It’s being spun like a web. You know there will be others to love deeply, more souls to find and you know this instinctively.

I love you and I wish you a lot of luck and happiness.

-You

[jackynotjackie]

If she called at 3 am, no matter what the reason or how tired you are, you would go running. I wanna believe that it’s because of what kind of person you are, but deep down it would be because you still feel something for her, and you can’t seem to let her go.

A message you will never receive

[calcuttachromosome-blog]

I am an old soul trapped in the 21st century! 😇 #entangled #yetclear #keralastories #godsowncountry #luckytobehere #photographysouls #hereiam #toyoufromme #traveldiaries #theuncommonbox #dongri #greenismycolor #backwaters #ig_kerala #mallugram #beingmallu #twigsandbranches (at Ashtamudi, Kerala Backwaters)

[calcuttachromosome-blog]

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[2you-4me]

Why?

We've gotten so close. So why do I feel this way? I'm scared this "relationship" isn't gonna go as far as I hope. Is it because of your new job? Im probably overthinking this but there is a reason why. I really like you, I love you. Even though we said it to each other, I feel it's dying. The meaning of it. I'll see in the next couple of weeks. Because I know you have school and work and you're going to be busy. I understand that. I just don't want nothing to change between us.

[2you-4me]

To: My Crush

Like I said before. We’re just friends. But…Of course I want to be more. But if not, at least show me you care for me, like a friend. The tacos, the Thai food, Star Trek, and the time we just hang out at school. Those were all good times. I have no clue what you think of me. I’m tired trying to make the effort to talk to you and make plans. Yeah I know you have your own life. But it would be nice if you start the conversation. I alway have to talk to you first. And sometimes you don’t even respond back. I really like you. TBH, I haven’t had a crush like this in a long time. Wow I feel lame just saying that. LOL