𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚋𝚢 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚎 : it was one he never expected to hear , not after the messy divorce , not after dawn . as far as he was concerned , it was WISHFUL THINKING , the idea that they could ever work things out / / / a thought he’d never entertained for long because of the absolute absurdity of it . blue eyes are staring at her , UNBLINKING [ . . . ] waiting for her to laugh , waiting for her to realize her mistake & clarify that she was speaking of something else , but it doesn’t come —— instead , it’s like the air has left the room & he’s struggling to BREATHE .
even after all these years , his heart still belonged to colleen . once upon a time , he would’ve said YES , he does in fact love gemma , venus , but neither could compare to the mother of his children : the one person in the world that had understood him , never tried to change him , was willing to spend their life with him , with the club [ . . . ] until she just couldn’t take it anymore . & that was his own fault / / / he PUSHED her away , then acted surprised when she bailed . the feeling of dread as he read through the divorce papers still ripped him apart , but he never argued , gave her exactly what she wanted ( 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐂𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐃𝐘 , 𝐍𝐎 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐒 ) ——
a hand is brushing over her cheek , pushing frizzy curls out of the way as blue eyes meet brown / / / holding her gaze for the first time in YEARS . for the first time in as long as he can remember , there’s no burning hatred , no RESENTMENT . a small spark of hope that maybe she really is being serious & brows furrow , corner of his mouth quirking up for a moment . ❛ 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 ? [ . . . ] 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 . ❜ because despite everything , the patch on his back runs deeper than BLOOD : the only family that hadn’t yet abandoned him , left him to choke on his own mistakes .