#trailing thoughts

[chefneverserious]

Once upon a time in the ROK

A trail of thoughts...2010

Trip to Europe

The feelings I have been feeling on and off for the last month or so.

The sense of being not totally myself

Something of me is missing here

World cup game

One night stands

My love life and my sex life

Inability to commit

The fact that I have never had a normal dating relationship

What defines a normal relationship?

My plans from here on out

Do I have a new lease on life?  What do I need to happen to bring about this change of view?

To tutor or not to tutor?

My ever changing opinion of the Korean male and the types of relationships you can have as a foreigner with them.

To err is human, to fuck up is to be real.

Books I’m reading

Things I want to do

Bucket list

Books I need read

That African poet I need to look up

That female empowerment vid Magda put up

WTF have I been doing with my life and what can I do to limit the wtfs in my life?

Facebook and me.

Boy friends and boyfriends.

Flickr account

Quest for new music

[softseaeyes]

...sometimes i get scared that it might forever be never

[ahistoryofanxietyandanxietyand]

I feel a greater kinship with the concept of gender as multiplicity than with the idea of disappearing gender.

[oftheseagreen]

Single life for me, for now

I think romance is obsolete or at least within my life.

Is it weird that I rather work and be a single stay at home parent?

I know a few amazing guys but nothing I could imagine long term.

I think I’m either afraid or I hate conflict/confrontation within relationships.

Or I’m afraid I might settle with the wrong person.

I realized I like to completely skip part one and fast forward to where the relationship ends. It saves so much time, knowing it end in disappointment anyways.

When we’re old and we’ve gotten tired of each other. And sex has gotten dull and we end up going through mid life crisis. And it’s either divorce or we’re stuck in a miserable love life for the rest of our lives. And we’ve wasted like 15 years....

[distantshadow]

Trailing Thoughts

I'm finally breaking down More and more I've fallen apart Over and over I only want to be whole again I only want to be in your arms I only want to feel loved My broken parts are well hidden That only those who can hunt find them Dragging them out to see How destroyed I am I only wanted you Even if you've never wanted me I've missed you a thousand times And yet you are never around When I've needed you most Only times I've cried the most Have been when I break down Too much pain to hold in Too many tears never shed Can't you see I love you Can't you see I'm breaking Can't you see I want you Can't you see

[shockxtoyoursystem-blog]

but it seemed so foolproof

starting to feel the full pressures of being a twenty-something year old and oh my god everything planned is crashing down like glass dominos there’s nothing i can do to stop it so i sit and watch and smile

another set broken another three months to pick up all the pieces—eight to nine months after finding tiny sparkling shards stuck to the surface of your skin. another 

i only wanted to be something to you

             year wasted.

you clumsy little fool, you.