“I never meant to fall in love with you.” :P
well that hurts a little bit | accepting
fuck. that’s something she’d never thought would affect her the way it just did. to have him throw that at her as an insult when she’s already so fragile, trying to learn how to feel again and it’s all for him.
it makes sense the the one time that she’d try to be more understanding is the time he’d do this. the one time that she finally agrees to let him in, to trust him with her fragile parts, he tells her he basically wishes she hadn’t.
fine. two could play that game. she was done.
“ so fall out of it. ”
there’s nothing else to say, not for her at least. he’d just made it very clear that she wasn’t what he had wanted, so it should be easy enough for him to let her go.
she’s gone before she can even fully register anything, having escaped through the window because she’s smaller, and faster, and he can’t follow her this way. it’s only in the car that she finally let’s herself exhale shakily, takes a second to process what she’s choosing.
she’s choosing what she genuinely thinks that he wants. she’s being what she thinks is selfless because she doesn’t want him to feel trapped by his feelings. everything she does is for everyone else. it’s how she’s lived most of her life.
everyone had always assumed that whenever she went down, it would be another intergalactic invasion, a god or goddess from another world, another attempt from a super soldier. something very real and very present in her life, and something very fantastical for the real world. something that didn’t make sense, that could explain the serum enhanced super spy finally falling when so many men had tried.
no one had anticipated it being an accident, no one could have guessed that it’d be a side impact collision, that she’d be the one at fault, for entering the intersection out of turn, blinded by tears and fear and irritation and everything she never let herself feel. none of it made sense, and the bus driver was going to have to forever live with the guilt of knowing that, regardless of it being entirely her fault, he’d killed Natasha Romanoff.
