Is apparently what I've been being recently. I'm not as nice and sweet and pleasant anymore. What happened? What caused me to change? And can I fix it? I'm tired of feeling like Bruce Banner. I'm tired of being so angry all the time. I need to stop caring about what other people do. Who gives a crap if they don't workout, or eat, or if they why constantly, or get paid to not work, or whatever stupid reason I'm getting annoyed at them for is... I need to worry about me. There is one person in this world who makes me feel better. Who can calm my storms. Who can tame my fires. So instead of stressing and upsetting that person (and pushing them away) by throwing people's annoying traits/actions/etc back at those doing them, I need to just do right by him and myself.
Today, for real, I'm stopping worrying about other people's crap as much as I can. It will be a slow process, but I CAN and WILL do this. I have enough on my plate without worrying about everyone else. I'm going to make the most of every moment and be happy as much as I can. I'm going to take some time to collect myself if things are getting tempestuous in my mind/heart. I'm going to look at my goals list I've made for the 30 day challenge and I'm going to say them aloud. remind myself about what is actually important. Today I start my transformation back into my happy self.
if I fail... I will hate myself forever for the consequences.