so i've been thinking about. like. the definition of my gender and how i articulate it
(yes this is cropped from hentai. shup up)
basically this panel is my gender. not the person depicted in it, my gender isn't 'a guy' or even 'a guy who looks feminine' or 'a person who is the opposite of what you expect them to be'. my gender is the whole moment and situation depicted in the panel. The sudden inversion of power dynamics, the readjustment in the head, the confusion and lust (it's still a horny-ass gender), the contradictory femininity. My experience of gender is this moment of the 'i'm actually a guy' reveal, extended across the whole of my presentation and identity.
'trap' is still a term i feel personally comfortable using FOR MYSELF ONLY (and fictional characters i project onto, in limited contexts) but dear friend of the blog @sapphiconoclast has also suggested 'peripette' and/or 'peripeteiagender', from latin 'peripeteia' meaning 'a turning point or sudden reversal, especially in drama', as somewhat more formal/inoffensive terms, and I reeeeeaally adore the way peripette sounds... idk