#trext

[treppi]

aaaaaaa seeing transformers:one in an hour!!

(in case i post spoilers i'll make sure to tag it "#tf one spoilers" and "#spoilers")

[trexxulyne]

i will forever reblog oc content. i will take you upon my steed and we'll ride into the sun together

[sleepallsummer]

everything i know about influencers i learned against my will 

[sadistmichael]

I DON'T WANT IT............I DPON'T WANT IT GOD........STOOPAPSZXDOSJD............NO FANFICTION

[hlbiki]

ok so this might sound strange and im sure if anyone read this theyd be on my ass about making up a problem but

does anyone else?? feel a little pressured within the trans community TO be gender nonconforming and/or nonbinary? like ofc it depends on which side of the community you are on, but i guess my point is that everything gets to a point to where attempted positivity and diversity is pressuring to people? ofc its fine to appear cis, cis passing privilege exists and such, but like... when i initially realized i was trans i wanted to see a cis passing man in the mirror, that was the point of everything, but after being told over and over again that i have to have pride in being trans i kind of gave up on my goals since i felt i could be lazy. i called myself nb for a little while, even, taking some peoples real valid identity and turning it into a personal excuse for myself. im the kind of person that needs to be reminded of my goal bc if i have the carrot hanging in front of me ill do better, and ill get happier quicker.

i dont want to be neutral about myself, i want to like myself. remembering my original goals to feel compatible with my body has made me excited to eventually transition (with dysphoria ofc) but idk. i feel like i can take pride in my goals more remembering that i want to be cis passing. thats my goal. im so happy for people who wear trans on their sleeves but thats not me. im not prideful of it, im dysphoric.

this probably didnt make much sense, but basically, i felt detached from myself, but i really feel realigned and determined about stuff again ditching my nb label. it was wrong of me to use an identity to validate my insecurity and subdue it, but not solve anything. i might be unbothered, but im not satisfied. i want to be cis passing

[treppi]

sorry for not posting any new drawings lately... i now have This Thing who likes sleeping on my drawing tablet and i dont have the heart to move her...

[hlbiki]

me waiting for danganronpa v3 merch like... where is it... i have money.... 

[hlbiki]

i dont care what your blog theme is!!!!!!!

i will eat these chicken nuggets!!!!!!!!