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I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life...
Jesus said unto him, "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life; no man cometh unto the Father, but by Me. — John 14:6 | Third Millennium Bible (TMB) Third Millennium Bible, New Authorized Version, Copyright 1998 by Deuel Enterprises, Inc. All rights reserved. Cross References: John 1:4; John 1:14; John 1:17; John 10:9; John 11:25; Acts 9:2; Romans 5:2
Troubled Hearts
Mateo’s concerned looks, Buttercups’ restless whines and the ransacked house did nothing to calm TK. He had started with bouncing his foot restlessly and when that didn’t help, had taken to pacing around the place...that no longer felt like home.
His home was with Carlos. Or atleast, it had been.
Now he wasn’t sure.
With shaky hands, he ran his fingers through his hair and fought with the urge to smash his fist against something. It was either that or give in to the temptation of drinking to oblivion. The raid had left smashed bottles of alcohol all over the floor and while Mateo had managed to clear away the glass, the smell was still in the air.
Most days TK didn’t really mind it, had often spend hours with his gang at the Honky-Tonk with others drinking around him without feeling any urges. But today was not most days.
He shut his eyes and instantly the image of Carlos’ face came in his mind, those beautiful brown eyes wide with utter surprise there as TK had lashed out at him. TK froze in his steps, his heart squeezing tight almost making every breath a struggle and shakily grabbed his phone.
It was finally time to use the number his Sponsor had given him.
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Three hours later, TK felt a little better. The talk with his sponsor Matt had helped, even if some hard truths were laid out before him. He had known that none of his actions were okay and there was a very real chance, he had blown off his relationship with the Officer. Matt had looked at him sympathetically when TK had tearfully asked ‘But what if he broke-up with me?” but hadn’t shied away from being honest. “Then you respect it and deal with it. You have your gang, you have my support. We can work through this.”
Matt had also suggested him to talk it out with Carlos and while TK had initially decided on spending the night in his dad’s house...it could still be a possibility...but he didn’t want to be silent anymore regarding his actions and the resulting consequences. Whatever they would be.
God...the thought of not being together anymore with Carlos wrecked him.
But he had to take accountability for his actions.
It was why, he was currently pacing the street away from their...Carlos’ house while typing a message with shaky fingers:
I’m sorry! I’m so so sorry...I should have never put my hands on you like that. It was not right no matter the circumstances. Can we talk please? But I understand if you can’t or don’t want to right now. Whatever you need. I’m really really sorry Carlos.
He shut his phone and took a deep breath, tears tracking from the corner of his eyes. Whatever Carlos decided, he’d have to respect that.
@carlos-reyes-9-1-1-lone-star
Troubled Hearts
@starlitmemory continued from x
“Putting away bad parts of you?” Hanzo repeated her words with a soft whisper as he took the offered plant. He didn’t know why he had considered following her instructions or how she guessed that there was something he needed to put away. He didn’t question it though, he would gladly take any attempt to help ease his heart.
“Is it....is it actually good to put away the bad parts?” He found himself asking her as he dug up some soil to make room for the plant in his hands, not once looking up at her as he spoke. “I have been told before that speaking about what troubles you, though perhaps I should not be the one speaking this as I do not follow their words myself. But you are young, too young to be burying any demons you have in the ground. They always find a way back out.”
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Made with YouVersion
Shalom Hashem (peace) I leave with you, my Shalom I give to you, not as the Olam Hazeh (the world) gives, I give to you; let not your levavot (hearts) be troubled, nor let them be ones of morech lev (cowardliness). - John 14:27 | Orthodox Jewish Bible (OJB) Orthodox Jewish Bible Copyright © 2002, 2003, 2008, 2010, 2011 by Artists for Israel International.
Evening Prayer - 31 Aug 2020
A verse from John’s gospel came to me tonight in prayer, Holy One: “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Believe in God. Believe also in me.” I don’t know why I keep rewriting it so it has “and do not be afraid” coming right after “be troubled.” Maybe because my heart is troubled with many worries. And my heart is broken with many griefs.
Jesus says that he’s preparing a place for me (for all of us, really), which is nice. The thing is, it feels like that place is in the life that comes after death, and I’m not in any hurry to get there. I want a place for me and for everybody here. The thing is, when I look at the crises that are swirling around us, it doesn’t feel like there’s much room here.
And as my staycation draws to a close, I’m realizing how much I really do need some space here for me. I realize how I don’t want to go back to the work patterns I had from March through July. So I’m really working on believing in you and in Jesus trusting that you two are creating space for me, for us. I’m working on believing that, even in the midst of these crises swirling around us, you want to make room for me here and now and each day going forward.
Thank you for your faithfulness. Amen.
WHEN CALLS THE HEART: TROUBLED HEARTS
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