“... 𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭?” he asks. the disbelief is seen in inflection. the narrowing of his brows. though, tone is unemotional. his expression, as well. even despite how deeply she affects him. but, he tries to hide it. to be a man. but, she’s so tempting. he wants her, yet he wants to push her away. it’s not fair. he doesn’t know how to handle things like this - he cannot kill her. no matter how many times he fantasizes about reaching in & caressing her organs. twisting knives & becoming acquainted with her insides. she’s kindred. has never known a woman like her, before. he knows her blood, inside & out.. & somehow he wants more. always, wants more. always thinks back to how it felt. how it smelt... “you are my punishment.” he hates her. he hates her, he hates her... but he need her. seeps into pores & rushes through veins.
he takes a step forward. eyes downward. menacing. though, he knows inside she must me laughing at him. she’s not scared of him. she thinks he’s funny. his mind telling him these things whether they’re entirely true, or not. she must think he’s less than a man.... doesn’t she? DOESN’T SHE!
hand snaps forth & grabs the back of her neck. jerking her closer, to his body. holding on for dear life. “i hate you so much.” he tells her. though he’s feeling such overwhelming emotion rise up within, because it’s not true. it is, but it isn’t. mind a flip-book of disgusting, deranged things he wants to do to her. “ich will dich auseinanderreißen..” (i want to tear you apart). he says it in german, so she doesn’t truly hear. mouth parted. “i want you.. so badly..”