Self Surrender
My heart is clear, but my mind is disturbed.
I was walking a straight path to God, but I’ve made a sudden turn.
A danger zone, A danger curb.
One in which I’m too far in to start over.
The walls are closing in on me, and I have no hope for change.
When I shifted, it got me off my lane.
My misery is killing me. I’m patching up the wounds.
Drink alcohol to numb the pain and disinfected soon.
I’m not enough to any one. Not even to myself.
Still not making wise moves with the cards i have been dealt.
And in my sudden pain, I wouldn't wish that I was dead.
If only I can go away without spreading more pain ahead.
My kids know I’m everything, but others wouldn't think the same.
If God doesn't save me, I’ll rotten in my shame.
If only i offered myself kindness and daily strive to be my own best friend.
We all know the only truth now is, I’m with me till the end.
And as i write and breath, It is now that really matters.
Which proves I’m stronger than I thought. My heart has not yet shattered.
I will be complete, as completely created to be, from now through out eternity, As God
breath in me to be.
But the catch is, and will always be…
I have to give it ALL, to sincerely Gain…..
-MigdaliaMill