Warning rant
It's 1:38 am and the thoughts of you, us (if there ever really was) are racing through my mind. I hate my self for loving you. I can't read my favorite poem "The Raven" anymore (for obvious reasons), or "The Pit and the Pendulum" knowing it was your favorite. I gave you some of my favorite things because you loved them so much. I can't sit on that futon where we had such deep conversations but also our first break (I should've left then) with out memories rushing through my thoughts. I trusted my life with you, my deepest, most kept secrets, my heart, but most importantly my trust. You decieved me. You were a serpant from the start. I hated you when I first met you. But you lured me in, capturing my soul. When I finally said I had enough of your bull$#!* you went around acting like I was the bad guy and that's ok. I suppose I deserved it for being so stupid. But then you DESTROYED me. I've had this crush for a long time, before you were ever in the picture. Senior year he asked me to prom. I said "Of course!" and I had the best time. Me and you were still "friends" at the time not as close but still friends. He's asked me out and still does over and over again. But you know what I keep turning him down. I'm so afraid if I give him any of my heart any tiny bit of my trust I will get hurt again. Because YOU destroyed me. I wish I wasn't like this. It's been almost 2 years. Yes I'm over you. But I cannot even think of putting my trust in anyone. The worst part was you hurt which used to be one of my closest friends. I warned him time and time again about you. But like me I would not listen. You had his child and won't even let him be apart of that but make it seem like he's a bad father. So I hope your happy destroying lives.