I really hate how some bellyjere shippers are using the Conrad and Adam scene as a way to claim that 1) Conrad hates his brother and never wants him happy and 2) that he and Adam are the same person.
First off, the concept that Conrad hates his brother and never wants him to be happy is absurd to me because this season alone he helped Belly plan more of this wedding than Jere when he wasn't even the groom, has accepted being Jeremiah's co-best man and planned his bachelor's party, explicitly told Jeremiah that he thinks he can do better than follow in their father's footsteps, didn't badmouth Jere when he could've (when Jere tells Belly he can't make it for the Michaels sale) and only ever does badmouth him after he finds out Jere cheated on her, and still tries to help Jere even when he's being pushed away after the wedding is called off. And not just in this season, the whole reason why he lied to Belly and left at the end of season 2 was for Jeremiah and Belly because he saw that they were happy together and he didn't want to fuck it up. Most of the decisions he's made his whole life have been to protect Jeremiah, so this notion that he has never wanted Jere to be happy because he was selfish for once is crazy.
Conrad feels terrible for hating his brother, as he says in his confession scene, and I think it must be really difficult for a selfless man like Conrad who has always been told to put others before himself, to put himself first for once and see the consequences of those actions. Conrad hates himself for hating Jeremiah, he hates that he's hurt him, but its understandable considering Jeremiah is marrying the girl that he's in love with. Jeremiah clearly had anger for when Conrad and Belly were together as he was jealous when they simply held hands, and he literally threw a firework at them in season 1. But in this scene where he's finally expressing his pent up jealousy and anguish, people are making him out to be a monster.
Secondly, I think some people are reading the Adam and Conrad scene a little wrong when they think that Adam and Conrad are the same person, or at least, that their decisions can be easily comparable. They are NOT.
Adam cheated on Susannah with his secretary when Susannah was undergoing chemo and then years later decided to bring her to the wedding. Conrad told Belly at an inopportune time that he was still in love with her which was a domino effect leading to them cancelling the wedding. One of these things is clearly way worse than the other even if they did hurt the people they love. The advice might be the same, but their circumstances are nowhere near similar--Conrad will never be like Adam.
But I'm sure in this moment, he must feel like it, and it must truly hurt to think you've finally outgrown your father, rebuilt yourself and completely took away the hold he had on you, only to find yourself coming back to him. I hope in therapy he can realize that he is not the monster people have made him out to be, he is not his father and he never will be, and he is not an amalgamation of the mistakes he's made in the past, that he does deserve happiness and he does deserve grace.
Also, I need Steven to apologize next episode or I'm ragequitting.
