#tsunderei

[grumpywaterfalls]

The Cure for You (is You)

The Cure for You (is You) by tsunderei

Haikyuu!!

Length: 6,155 (complete)

Rating: Teen & Up Audiences 

Pairing: Hinata/Kageyama

Author Summary: 

Kageyama knew they would separate after graduation. He knew he was going to miss Hinata. He just didn’t know he’d still be here, three years later, nursing an old crush that now seems more or less ruined by time and distance and stupidity.

[grumpywaterfalls]

A Million Floating Hearts and Counting

A Million Floating Hearts and Counting by tsunderei

Haikyuu!!

Length: 7,171 (complete)

Rating: Teen & Up Audiences 

Pairing: Hinata/Kageyama

Author Summary: 

Fans have always loved to speculate about Kageyama and Hinata, especially after their professional volleyball careers took off. They usually deal with all the attention in stride, accepting the bad with the good – but the more Kageyama stays quiet, the more Hinata worries.

[little-forget-me-not]

I can’t believe Undertale put me in the game, I am so flattered I-I mean it’s not like it m-makes me happy or anything, baka!

[tattsunsan]

I guess you could say that Rei was being... Tsunderei

[little-forget-me-not]

Do you guys know of characters who sometimes get really angry and upset that they start throwing ridiculous tantrums, but yet a gentle touch from someone they care about is enough to calm them down and turn them quiet, docile and completely tame?

That is literally me.

Except that it is really embarrassing to admit that and I'll be struggling to hide the fact that it has an effect on me, and that is impossible because my face is an open book and I cannot hide emotions well.

There was one time when I was panicking and being very snappish and hot-tempered, and my sister offered to brush my hair. I accepted because it was a kind gesture and I knew it was her attempt to make peace with me.

What I didn't expect was that her simple act of brushing my hair actually managed to soothe me almost instantly. It was like running your hands through the fur of a bristling dog and smoothing it out. Or holding out an umbrella to shelter a puddle pelted by rain and watching the ripples ease into still waters.

And the thing was that my best friend was there in the same room with us, and I knew the sudden calm and meekness that washed over me was evident in my body language and facial expressions. AND I DIDN'T WANT HER TO NOTICE THAT (but of course, she did)

I ended up shrugging my sister off because I was so embarrassed.

My best friend and I call this behavior, "my tsundere tendencies". Fex has aptly nicknamed it "Tsunderei" (which is honestly such a blatantly obvious and good pun, I'm a little miffed I didn't think of it first haha)

WHICH IS ANOTHER EMBARRASSING THING TO ADMIT.

Of course, I'm typing it all out now and not saying this face-to-face with another person, so it's not as embarassing. Besides, most people I know irl don't really know of my blog and wouldn't bother to read this anyway.

If someone I trusted and allowed to touch was playing/brushing/touching my hair or just gently caressing me (LIKE YOU WOULD A PET, NO NAUGHTY THINGS HERE), I would stay silent and not talk to them (or sometimes I do, just to try and draw away from the fact that their actions have an effect on me)

But if they were to be playful or tease me about it, my reaction would be instantaneously:

Person: You like it when I touch your hair? Me: *avoids gaze* NO. SHUT UP. Person: (any response) Me: SHUT UP ihateyougoawayyou'resomeanwtf

or if they are being genuine

Person: Do you like it when I touch your hair? Me: *refuses (more like unable) to meet gaze* .................................................maybe. Person: (any response) Me: shutup

I don't know why I react that way, I just get all flustered and embarassed and shy and defensive and rough. If I were to say yes, I'd probably be hiding my face where no one can see me or I'd send a text message and it all seems so bloody tsundere and aren't tsunderes only found in the manga/anime world?! What am I. A plausible stereotype? Who the heck has heard of a real-life tsundere?!

Except I actually sort of am. wtf

And it has taken several months for me to accept (and mayhaps embrace) that dumb fact.

It's not just in...hypothetical situations like those.

In daily life, as long as you bring up certain topics (ok, basically anything nsfw), and if I'm comfortable with you, I will instantly become flustered.

My bf found it equally amusing and annoying because my body tends to turn itself away, and I'll avoid eye contact (WHILE FIGHTING TO MAINTAIN EYE CONTACT) and for some reason, my hands will cover my mouth/nose/face gdi and I can't control it.

i'd either deny everything that i agree with or give a "maybe"

It's not just that either. If I am really close and comfortable with someone, I tend to express my affection by calling the other person names (stupid, stupid monkey, you moron, idiot, stupidhead etc - I KNOW, I'M SUCH AN ASS) or by awkwardly saying cheesy things and calling it "STUPID" or "CHEEEEEEEEEEEESE PIZZA" or "lolsomushy" afterwards. I'll poke and nudge instead of initiating the hug/cuddle that i want.

And I do it because I don't want to seem overly affectionate or mushy. I'd punch you and say it's because I love you.

...

WHY

WHO THE HECK ACTS LIKE THIS

and

...

why do i have to be so embarassing oh my god

that is totally like a tsundere QAQ

aren't tsunderes FICTIONAL TROPES

why am i 

...

I only discovered this after developing Nolan...who is a huge part of me (he's basically my "id"), and I realised that he was a mega tsundere

i laughed at him for being a tsundere

and then i realised that we reflected each other

and i started to wonder if i was secretly a tsundere but i didn't realise it

(but tsunderes arent real, RIGHT?! or so i believed)

but when i talked about it to my bf, and we touched on cheeky topics (or just me sharing any sort of noday stuff), i would fluster and blush and REACT and it was strange because i didn't know i reacted that way andddd

...

ok i'll stop here

i feel like burying myself in a mountain of blankets

i don't know why i felt the need to write this embarrassing thing on such a public site

i guess it's my form of "coming out"

whatever

AHHH

ignoreme

[myosotisconvallaria]

tsunderei replied to your post: tsunderei replied to your post: tsunderei...

theres a ton in nj lishia

I LIVE IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WE DON'T EVEN HAVE CHAIN PIZZA TO BE DELIVERED 

[myosotisconvallaria]

tsunderei replied to your post: tsunderei replied to your post: for jades...

its sad that homestuck is ending soon but its nice to end off with your favorite kid!! i should do that too actually uou what other cons are you going to?

I'm going to Kotoricon as Aradia

Castle Point as Jade

Clovercon ( I'm working) as Jade

AnimeNEXT as Panty, Keine, and Jade

and then at the way end of the year there's NYCC although I'll probably only be there Saturday as Sailor Pluto with the rest of my friends as the rest of the outer senshi

comic cons aren't usually my thing so I don't tend to stick around long

what about you?

[shuurima]

tsunderei replied to your post: OIM SCREAMinG IM WATHCING SCOTT PILGRIM FOR LIEK...

WOW THATS WEIRD BECAUSE… I WAS JUST WATCHING THAT PART…

om FG ANd THEN HE GOT STABbe dTHROUGH CHEST AND IT SAId DEAD ON IT WHY IS EryTHIGN HOEMSTUck