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Guilty as Sin?

am i guilty as sin, guilty as charged if i learn to shut down, to know who you are with no way to escape am i your willing friend?

we are first-second-third, what i deserve cut the middle-man out, now i'm built to serve if i do what you want can you give me my end

spirit away, another's mistake it was never my choice, take me again if i swear loyalty, please promise me back my place

learning to play the cowardly way despise courteous feet, twisting away there's the sting of your hand, still have your brand on my face

smile too fond, beach and bleach-blond if i give in to this, hard to resist he might make me complete, brushing the teeth from my throat

another home, dust, open roads if i'm learning to love, learning to cope will you forgive me when i now and then let you go?

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The Albatross

Deep under moss, I hid an egg I laid, in wait of hatching

Thought you’d get on board, but three years later, I still hear it scratching

The chick can’t breathe, needs a father who can love it, feed it

I dig it up, put it somewhere you can’t help but see it

An albatross, its too-big wings all stunted by its prison

I wonder if it might have flown if you had only listened

You risked its health, basket balanced on my peak at seven

Crushed it myself, I spared its pain, no misery in heaven.

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loml

i looked into your eyes and white lied, 'light of my life, i'll never leave you' held your hand as the other packed a suitcase a precaution, i said 'let's open my largest whiskey' we drank in hands like kids down by the lake but you drained me of life 'til i was swaying now you're a lonesome old martyred leech not my fault you couldn't hear what i was saying signs telling you i wanted you to leave

leave, or my life would be lost on misty lands, trapped by my own roots, stuck begging for borrowed sand latch onto memory like i want to love or maybe lose at this precipice, we falter love or my life, don't make me choose

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The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

do you remember, once you once pledged me all the love you had to give it filled the caverns of your heart, the rooms, it barely fit i took it off your hands and let it settle on me, light you taught me how to love myself and taught me how to live but, bemused, i watched days pass as you began to lose weight and height and daylight, shrinking out of your shoes after years of being bare, allergic to my love your heart was recoiling, reclaiming back its rooms the rest of you will follow suit, end what your heart's begun the smallest man who ever lived, no bigger than my thumb and i still have that handful, all the love you had to give but it's now so small it might as well be none.

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