We learned to love again.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder. While this may be true, I still don't understand whether my heart yearns to be with the one who isn't there, or if it likes his absence.
We are one of the few couples who spent their first year away from each other. Long-distance relationship really suck not because you can't be together the whole time. It sucks because there are times when communication is poor, and since it is important to convey our thoughts, sometimes what we tell the other person is may fall short of their expectations or otherwise, strangle them. It'll take a long time before one can adjust and adapt the discomfort miles between them.
Innumerable instances of petty and large fights have already come between us. Frankly, I'm not the type to stay in any endeavor once it has been too complicated. But things made me realize that despite all these challenges, I have learned how to adjust. There was even a time when we had called it quits after all the confessions, verbal weapons, emotional combats and stuff like that. A month without communication was not that hard, given that we were away from each other and don't have encounters that much.
Inside that month, I tried to move on and focused on the things that I had to accomplish (especially because the licensure exams were fast approaching). I thought that everything was going smoothly for me, but a lot of people were telling me that I was drastically losing weight without me realizing it. It's not that I really yearned for him during those times but hey, I was not reducing my body mass on purpose. I think it was more of the stress of losing a great buddy that made me lose weight as if he was already a part of me that I eventually lost. I'm usually not this mushy but that's how I felt during those times we hadn't even texted.
I did the first move (though I didn't intend to get back together) in contacting him. My sole purpose was to get in touch and gradually just shed off the bond we used to share. I couldn't say I still felt the same way as when we were together, but there was an urge to maintain the friendship that we used to have. So when I called and he answered, we talked about stuff that didn't concern our past and I realized we clicked just like how we started.
Weeks passed and I was given a chance to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city life and he was very willing to accommodate me in his place. I spent days with him and little by little we found ourselves once again attracted with each other. The attachment was more natural than before and I found that our friendship was unbreakable. I noticed that he was ore playful and spontaneous around me, and I was the same. We weren't afraid to make any mistakes. any feeling of disappointment and anger was easily solved since we would discuss our own sides. I believe that this is ultimately what I want in life.
Now I feel that love and relationship really doesn't have to depend solely on destiny. It has to be a continuous effort of learning and working it out. It had been destiny who drew us together, but it was our passionate endeavor that drew us closer.
