#tunabug

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You ever just look at your cat and start crying because they are so adorable and precious and you love them so much and you would do anything for them?!

No? Just me?

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Tried to go to bed at 11, but came back downstairs to Tuna doing the thing that made me bring her to the emergency vet last time. It lasted for about an hour. I stayed up until 2 to make sure it didn’t happen again. So I finally went to sleep and Tuna wanted under the covers. About an hour later I woke up to her making the same noise again so I took the blankets off of her and she crawled out. It continued for about 10 minutes until she fell asleep again cause she was so tired. I’m still checking on her breathing periodically. I’m so tired, but I’m also scared and worried for her. I wanted to monitor her this time around because last time they really couldn’t find anything wrong and I didn’t want to pay for another really expensive veg bill just for them to tell me the same thing. This time I have some videos to explain what had happened and apparently keeps happening. She’s sleeping rn and seems to be doing okay for the moment, but I’m still worried nonetheless since it came back and started again 😞 I am going to call my vet tomorrow and book an appointment for hopefully this Wednesday, since I don’t work on Wednesday’s anymore, and see if they can check her out. And then hopefully I can send them a video of what happened and stuff so we can get to the bottom of it. It scares the shut out of me everytime it happens 😞

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On a positive note, I got Tuna a dog bed, and she loves it 🥰💛

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Why is my cat SO GROSS?! I literally just cleaned the litter boxes and once they were clean, she ran in there TO ROLL IN THE LITTER. She didn’t even USE IT. She just went in there to roll in the fucking litter to get the dust all in her fur 🤮 GROSS.

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The past 2 days have been really nice! Yesterday, I did my makeup and went and got my hair done, and now I have pink hair!!! ☺️ which I am suuuuuper in love with! On our way back home, I stopped by the bakery to pick up my shoes and soap that I had left there for so long, and found out it’s just Mike, Linda, and Brayden working there right now and that’s it. And even the. It’s super dead too. After we got home, I got my mom to look over my resume and sent it in. I also let Tuna roam around the front yard and I just held her leash and followed her around. I didn’t spend a whole lot of time on my phone yesterday and just tried to be in the moment of my everyday life.

Today I also tried to live in the moment and try not to be so stuck on my phone. I think I did a pretty damn good job. I only pulled out my phone to snap a couple pictures and play a bit of Pokémon Go. But today I spent a couple hours outside with my family. I also started to read my book again after months of putting it to the side. I did my makeup and got ready again today! I took Tuna out for a walk and took her to the park by my old Elementary School and let her roam around there. She was really spooked by all the humans that passed by though. After walking home, Kiana and I met up with Nicole to go for wings at Brew. Kiana had left after about an hour and after she did, a bat got stuck on the rooftop patio. It was there for about 10 minutes panicking trying to get out, but it eventually found its way out. Thank god cause the manager said he was going to kill it! But now I’m back home. I have Tucker in my room right now because he was excessively panting because my mom took him for a walk today at 9 when it was still quite warm out and his limp has been really bad today. Anyways he was still panting really bad when I got home so I eventually brought down an ice pack and a bag of ice to put on his paws and rub on his ears and mouth to try and cool him down. He eventually got out of his bed and payed down by my shelf and had calmed down quite a bit. No more panting, thankfully. I was really worried for a bit. But he seems better now.

It’s been a long day, but it’s been a really good day. A really good couple of days actually. It’s been so nice and I’ve been really loving being outside and spending time with my fam a bit. Though, I still think of you in those moments of silence. I wish that you could be here with me, enjoying this time together. I know I know. I just need to enjoy the moments happening in front of me, and I do, but that doesn’t stop me from missing you. Especially in the summer. It’s hard not to. But I’m doing my best to push past that constant yearning for you. Some days I can’t, and they are hard days, but I still get through them.

I hope you’ve been well, and I hope you’re enjoying your summer! 💛

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Tuna is feeling much better today and I’m so thankful! Seeing her all drowsy for that long was worrisome. But she’s already back to her annoying self lmao. She woke me up around 6:30 this morning wanting attention. And she also got up and ate some food and drank some water! She’s been super cuddly too 🥰

I woke up fairly late and still feel a bit blah, but I’m making the effort to clean and actually got out of bed and made my bed too. I hate feeling like this, but as long as I’m making the efforts to try and make myself feel better instead of just sitting in those feelings, then I’m doing okay. I’m hoping that the day gets better as it goes on. And if not, there’s always tomorrow! At least I’m not overly anxious today so that’s a plus! Gonna try and find something to eat and then continue studying for my learners. I’m almost done the book, so then I can go in and take the test! By Monday or Tuesday I should have my learners again and then be able to start practice driving! I’m trying my best to do things little by little instead of a bunch of things all at once, cause that always seems to overwhelm me incredibly. But I’m proud of myself for all the small little things that I’m accomplishing. And that includes finally taking Tuna to the vet after a few years and getting her shots updated. Small steps are v important in the progression of growth, and I’m proud of every little step I have taken.

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My poor baby is so tired. She’s been sleeping since I brought her home from the vet, and she hasn’t gotten up to eat or drink water. I searched it up and apparently that’s normal after vaccinations and should only last anywhere from 24-36 hours. If it lasts longer, then I’m supposed to contact my vet. It’s just so weird to see her this way and worries me, even though I know it’s a side effect :( let’s hope she feels a bit better tomorrow.

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I took Tuna to the vet today! And it was the first time actually trying out my backpack carrier. It went pretty well for the most part! Well at least on the way there. On the way back she tried to jump out and did jump out twice when we were almost home so I had to zip it up until we got back home. I got all her shots updated, which she did so good with (not so much the trimming of her nails lol), got a urinalysis done cause I’m not sure if she has a UTI or not, but they will call me on Monday with the results. I’m also gonna think about getting some bloodwork done for her just to make sure there’s nothing wrong, cause I asked the vet to maybe look at her back teeth on her right side where she always grinds them. Two seperate vets said they didn’t see anything, so it could be a sign of discomfort. But the vet said that since it’s been a while and she’s still playing and running around, it’s probably just like a tic, like how humans have, that she formed at some point. I might also have to invest in some paste for her lack of hair balls though. But the vet visit was good overall! And everybody loved her!! When they took her to the back to do the urinalysis, I could hear everyone saying how beautiful she is and how sweet she is! Everyone also said that she was a very large, long cat and also agreed that she was part Maine Coon! And the vet a few times had to go get an assistant cause she was trying, and did, jump on her back. She had a little giggle, and she reassured me that she wasn’t being a bad cat, she just couldn’t do the exam alone with her doing that lol.

Once we got home, Tucker was still in my room, but he tried to get up on the couch. But his back foot got stuck under the flap of the cushion and caused him to fall and he couldn’t get back up. He laid there with his two front legs on the couch and then eventually slid down to the floor cause he couldn’t get up. I started petting him and trying to comfort him cause I felt really bad that that happened, and it scared me. I started to cry and he panicked and got up cause me crying stresses him the fuck out, so I immediately stopped and called him back and got him to lay on my blanket on the floor. But I’m going to mention to my mom again, and maybe this time she will hear my pleas, to take him to the vet. Because I cannot keep seeing him like this.. it truly breaks my heart.

I also haven’t been feeling well today. I woke up to a small gallbladder attack. It wasn’t too painful, but still was a bit to deal with this morning while getting ready to leave for the appointment. But by the time I got back home, it had gone away, though I still didn’t feel good. So I ate some food and relaxed and I feel better now.

It’s been a good, slightly stressful day so far, but that’s okay. But I really hope my mom can really listen to me about Tucker. She has the next 2 weeks off, so I’m hoping that during that time, I can convince her to take him to the vet, but we will see. I’m going to spend the rest of the afternoon studying for my learners test and then take the test sometime this weekend or on Monday! Hopefully my mom can teach me a bit during her vacation!