tw (spoilers!!!): yandere, murder, child neglect, reader is a yandere and oc turns into one/reaches his final form. implied body mutilation/horror. reader is horridly mentally ill guys. narrative glorification of a certain type of sacrifice. a poor woman gets sacrificed. reader’s gender isn’t specified, but you guys have a son who’s a mix of your features/implied to be both of y’all’s bio kid. misunderstanding.
note: this is more of an outline if anything, blurb than a full narrative, but i’m open to rewriting a full oneshot of it. maybe.
He never even looked at her that way. The only time she has ever touched him was that day you came into the office, her arm around his. Her voice ringing in his ears as she planted the preposterous idea that he could be anything but yours.
But somehow that image was enough to drive you insane, or maybe you were already that way in the first place. He’s noticed it since long ago, when you two were still dating. That look in your eyes that screamed of apathy despite your demeanor that many would see as normal or at least adjacent to it.
Yes, you were always like this — he realized. Just like he was always and irrevocably yours.
“…kill her.” Your voice barely came out. Hoarse from the tears you shed as you ran away from the scene earlier that day.
And before you could even finish your demand he answered, “If that’s what you want, mahal ko, if it’ll make your pain stop for but a moment . . . let me handle it— let me—“
And you, hating the fact that it made you so soft, interrupt him, staring at his arms that held you so tightly, “Don’t let her blood get on you.”
He does. Kill her that is.
But it isn’t exactly the way you wanted it to occur. He kills her socially, financially, and makes sure she could never crawl out of the hole he buries her in. He uses his connections. He makes sure that none of it is traced back to him. No stains to implicate him. No blood spilled on him or his clothes.
But you only see it as a mercy.
He didn’t end her life because he loves her. You thought. He loves her so much that he could only let others do the work, and even then he never went all the way.
He loves her, he loves her, he loves her—
You clam up further. Your son, your sweet precious son that had his stupid hair and eyes. You didn’t care if he had your smile. You couldn’t even bear to look at him. No matter how much the little one cried for you. You just couldn’t. Everything was a damn reminder that you weren’t enough. You could never be enough. How could have been so stupid to think anyone would you— you—
In reality, he didn’t kill her not because he felt anything towards her— but because he interpreted your words as being a subtle guide. “Don’t let her blood get on you.” As in don’t let any evidence get traced back to you.
Oh, he was so blind.
But he sees it now! He does!
Her end was an ordeal. He wore the proper PPE. Made sure that the mess she would become would never leave a mark on him or his conscience. Not that he had any when it came to you.
He would do anything, anything to make you feel safe and secure in his arms again.
And the look in your eyes once he told you what happened could make him smile for days— no, lifetimes!
But of course, you weren’t finished yet.
“I want security cams, audio feeds, 24/7.” His heaven finally speaks, “And I want every person who ever looked at you gone.”
He didn't hesitate. He didn't even breathe for a second before he was leaning in, his forehead pressing against yours with a desperate, fervent intensity. A dark, almost manic grin tugged at the corner of his mouth a look of pure, unadulterated relief that bordered on madness. “Tomorrow morning, my dear. And pray tell, who are these you speak of looking at me?”
He grins manically at you, “There is no one but you. Only ever you.”
But he supposes, the point that he could truly say he was mad was with your the final demand.
“…the arm. Cut it off.” Your wonderfully dark eyes gazed at the limb. “The one she held onto.”
He offers it to you wrapped in silk.
an: i got really into yan4yan because of caleb from lads is it obvious or is it obvious. also im hella rusty when it comes to writing lol forgive me.
i feel very strongly about yans who don’t get angry with you, they simply just know better than you. so they kind of expect you to misbehave and act out
i love the art sm ^-^ !!!!! ronans design is so pretty, i love him sm!
i read the whole yan alphabet (+ got super excited learning abt his lore!) ,, ik u said he would want us to warm up to him, but would ronan be the type to confess first (if he had a feeling we liked him back) or wait for us to confess to him?
Thank you for your support!! I'll do my best to serve yall with more of Roann stuff in the future! 🫶
Roann would definitely confess to you first if he knew you liked him back! he tried to not he hasty about it though, and he would ask the office around if there is any scoop on you liking him back or not ( yknow, just to make sure )
since roann have his own expectations for his dream first confession ( following the romance movies he grew up and obsess over ), he would make it as romantic as he could. he will even go as far as wearing contact lenses and getting new clothes for his confession!
Note : Roann would be much more surprised if you confess to him first, but he would be so delighted for the rest of the day you confessed to the point he would get all flustered and even thinking of treating the whole department out of happiness ( but you stopped him of course, for the sake of his money. )
Introducing (properly) to you, Roann Alderic with more details of his life + a special yan alphabet to help you get what kind of person he is! 🍊
🐯 Roann Alderic
Name : Roann Alderic
Age : 2 7
Job : Office Worker
About him :
Roann is an only child of his late parents, and is now under the care of his grandparents. He came from a rich lineage but chose to work humbly at one of his grandparent associate's company to be independent and repay them one day. And then comes you in his life..
🐯 What does Roann like? Fun facts?
- He actually likes collecting cute trinkets. Little phone keychains, little stickers, plushies..he collects them all and kept them neatly at home and barely mentioned it to anyone.
- He hates spicy food and would prefer something more savoury.
- He loves anything yellow or orange, but he likes all colours in overall.
- He didn't believe in ghosts.
- He is bad at taking pictures.
🐯 Yan Alphabets ft. Roann
This is a very long read! Feel free to skip this part if you wanted to read shorter info abt Roann ^^"
Yandere Alphabet for this section is taken from here , all credits to them!
(TW : implied force eating, implied kidnapping, Roann being a weird softie, English not being Griev's strongest suit)
🐯 Authority: Do they see themselves as above their obsession?
- Roann definitely believe that his obsession ( or rather, 'care' as he calls it ) is not really that demanding and actually saw it as him being logical at taking care of your well-being in some way. He's definitely infatuated to the max with you, but didn't want you to be scared or intimidated and would try his best to have you warm up to him by yourself without him having to turn to..other measures should you start to stray away from him.
🍊 Bread: Can they cook or bake? Are you responsible for your own food?
- Roann is very,very skilled at cooking and would be that type of person that made sure his food is presented well. While he was not much versed in baking, he is willing to learn and perfect any recipe he comes across as interesting (and will do the same for you too since he thought you might like some delicious dessert to go with). When leaving you, he'll take full responsibility at keeping you fed by cooking you food early on in the day and only asks you to warm it up later for lunch/ dinner. ( You need to eat, if he came home to the food untouched he'll simply make sure you eat something, either you want to or not. )
🐯 Cruentus- How do they respond to Y/N being hurt, both slightly and severely?
- Oh, he would be livid at himself, and you, by extent. For example, if you got hurt due to the bullies at your workplace, he definitely (and definitely will) remove them as quietly as he could through false stories and reports to the HQ while being a bit colder to you because he can't believe he got you, his beloved, hurt by those people right in front of him. If you got hurt due to the things in his house, however, he would be gently chiding you for not being careful enough while treating your wounds and would take one business day for him to change any furniture or objects that could be dangerous for you in his home.
🍊 Disengage - What's their response to being ignored?
- He would be confused at first. Why would you ignore him when he have given you everything? He would try to talk to you, follow you, offering you more desserts than usual, more gifts, embracing you ever so gently and if you push him away even more by some point, he'll crack - and his more desperate side will show, holding onto you, being on his knees, face buried in your stomach as he asked if he did anything wrong, suffocating your face with little kisses until he got an answer out of you.
🐯 Enclosure: Where do they keep you?
- Roann is very observant of your interest and likes. You liked that one comfy furniture in the office? He'll take note of it. Your favourite color? Noted straight away. Your favourite aesthetic, or how he kept seeing advertisements of plushies and cute things on your computer at the office? Heavily noted, written down into his diary. By the time you took his bait and come to his home, he'll show you the room that is wholly tailored to you, perfect color, perfect light, perfect amount of pillows, plushies...just for you to hear the door locking from the outside just as you were about to compliment him on his 'taste'.
🍊Facade: Are they good at hiding their true intentions?
- Very. He's so good at it that you became his close friend at the office, he's so good at it to the point you started to go on little trips to that cafe that you really wanted to go in the city with him, he's so, so good at it to the point you trust him so much that you wouldn't think that he is behind the dissepearance of your workplace bullies, your finished report and your promotion at the office.
🐯 Garment: Do they take control of your clothes?
- He definitely would, but wouldn't dare dress you in..suggestive clothes, as he calls it. Roann would buy you clothes that you deemed comfy and wouldn't want you to feel unsafe around him. He would be that type of person that covers you with his jacket if you look like you're cold from wearing short sleeves or if you wear something that is deemed too revealing to him ( even if it's a dress. ) ( Dare I say he would be that type of man that pulls his face away out of being so flustered whenever you wore something so beautiful in his eyes. )
🍊 Handicap: How do they handle Y/N being or becoming disabled?
- He would 1000% be more protective, more concerned about you than he is now. He would do everything he could to provide whatever you need, all the things or check-ups you might need to go to.
🐯 Intertwine- How physical are they? Do they enjoy skinship and touch?
- It's safe to say he's touch-starved. Yes, but he's holding back so, so hard out of fear of bringing any discomfort to you. He really enjoys it when you embrace him tightly with a squeal that one time when you won something at the arcade and would find himself putting his arms around his shoulder to feel again that little warmth you provided him, and found himself punching his pillows when he realized what he's doing. He definitely prefer kisses and gentle caresses instead of something way rougher. ( Well, unless you allow him, of course. )
🍊 Jaunt: Are they willing to take you out? Where do they go?
- He has no problem of taking you out as long that he's holding you close, and you promising him that you wouldn't run, really. He would feel so guilty sewing in trackers into your clothes while you slept and making you wear that one suspicious bracelet that can help him track you. He would bring you anywhere that is safe and everywhere that you really like or wanted to go. It's been a while since you are outside his house? He'll bring you to the city park. He kept on seeing you stay by the windows, looking at the snow? He'll bring you out skiing. He kept on seeing you looking at the television that showed popular food places? Buckle up, and you will find yourself at that exact restaurant with him getting all giddy and smiling.
🐯 Kindness: What brings out the best in this yandere?
- Roann is definitely at his best in both tending to your needs and strategizing elimination plans behind your back, really. He's smart enough to not leave any traces of his planning on his diaries or paper ( save for that note about your interests in furniture, but you trust him so much you shake it off as him wanting to buy you a gift, wink wink ) and would go as far as calculating the outcomes in his head. He has enough savings for him and you by extent, and would be that type of person that calculate his montly bills, payments and such so that he could keep track of everything properly.
🍊 Limitation: What holds them back? Work? Family obligations? Physical weakness?
- Roann's care and love for you would be both his strength and what held him back from going too far. Sometimes he would find himself wondering if keeping you by his side is the right thing to do, and sometimes he'll find himself going knee-deep in overtime just because he wanted to have more savings to care for you and marry you one day.
🐯 Morals: What lines are they not willing to cross?
- For you, consent, comfort, and care are number one factor for Roann. He wouldn't want you to feel pressured into fulfilling anything you didn't want to. He didn't want you to not feel comfortable around him, and definitely didn't want you to stop caring about his presence. For the others, he definitely wouldn't eliminate through bloody methods but instead will try other ways to remove any problems out of his way, and your life by extent. Roann's life is centered around his reputation and such and wouldn't dare to taint it with his 'wrongdoings'. After all, you wouldn't love him anymore if you found out he's been making detailed reports to the HQ and having enough sabotages to the point that one co-worker of yours got demoted from your sector, would you?
🍊 Nausea: Can they tend to an illness, or would they rely on a doctor?
- Doctor, 100%. He already has his usual doctor one call away should you have any illness or sickness. He didn't, and will never trust those tips on the internet.
🐯 Obcordate: What reminds them of you?
- There are a lot of things that reminds Roann of you. That one cardigan you always wore at the office, and how he bought the exact same one pretending that it's yours, that favourite pen of yours that you always used, that little keychains of that bear mascot that you always put on your things.. and the list goes on and on. ( The song you always hum too. He found himself adding the song to his phone and humming it while he's home.)
🍊 Pacify: How do they comfort you? Do they even bother trying?
- Roann would comfort you through actions and warm embrace if you are stressed and overwhelmed. He would embrace you ever so tightly even if you thrashed around or screaming, gently sushing you, asking you what happened while throwing in some comforting words. He would try so hard to try and comfort you, and wouldn't dare to be harsh with you, even if you attempted to run away. ( He'll just find and drag you back into the warmth of his house and his embrace. )
🐯 Queue: Do they have something of equal or greater importance to you?
- Roann's grandparents (his caretakers) is the one who took him in after he l̷o̷s̵t̶ his p̸a̴r̷e̴n̴t̸s̵. When he finally got close to you, his grandparents is the one who he ever so giddily told about you and his feelings. While Roann loves you so much, he definitely took it upon himself to take care of his grandparents too by sending them money and calling them a couple few times per week.
🍊 Redemption: Could they grow out of their obsession and make amends with Y/N?
- It's a 50/50 chance, really, depending on your reaction to his deeds. Roann could eventually learn to actually love right due to him obsessing over you so much and you accepting him as a whole, wrong deeds and all, but he would be pushed away from you if you saw his deeds being wrong.
🐯 Sobriquet- What nicknames do for they have for their obsession?
- Roann have practiced how different nicknames roll out on his tongue, but one stood out to him, and he would call you his sun whenever he wrote about you or saw you in his house when he kept you inside. Some other nickname as my love and baby would come out too if he wanted, but most of the time he would refer you as his sun, as much as he got his cheeks all red whenever he thought about that particular nickname.
🍊 Troop: How many people do they obsess over? Is that obsession spread equally?
- Roann is super, super loyal to the individual he obsessed over, in this case, you. But that doesn't mean he didn't care about the others, but his colder, more stricter side will be put on rather than the warm, cuddly version of him that he kept showing to you. He also cares a lot about his grandparents too. ( R̵a̴t̴h̷e̷r̵ ̸t̷h̸a̷n̵ ̸h̴i̸s̷ ̵l̵a̶t̶e̸ ̵p̷a̸r̴e̴n̶t̵s̸.̵ )
🐯 Underdog: Who's on the yandere's side? Would they help out?
- Due to Roann's reputation at his office, he had many people help him, and by extent, the other co-workers, too! He could simply ask them to help him know more about you, like what would you usually eat at the office's cafeteria, what problems do you have..just by a flick of his finger. This could also be a problem for you if you didn't reprocicate his actions well for you since a lot of your co-workers will be on his side.
🍊 Vocalize: How do they justify their actions?
- Roann would justify everything he did so far as caring about you, loving you, yearning for you..everything, around you. He would be laughing with tears as he held you by your shoulder, staring into that beautiful eyes of yours looking back into his soul with fear instead of love will break him so much.
🐯 White Whale: Why do they pursue Y/N, exactly?
- This ties to his childhood and you, really. Roann didn't exactly have a great p̸e̶r̷c̵e̶p̴t̴i̶o̷n̵ on emotions back then since his late p̸a̴r̷e̴n̴t̸s̵ usually fought with each other and let out their frustration on him, wanting him to do well in his education, wanting him to fit their respective expectations for him. When his late parents d̶̙̽i̴̞͘è̴̳d̵̳̈́, his grandparents took care of him, and by that time, the damage is already done to his psyche. Due to his rich family lineage, most of his 'friends' just wanted him for his status and money - and he didn't have that much hope for loving someone, or to be loved. He didn't know how - and he would find himself watching romance movies to see what it would be like to love someone due to hearing how his grandmother praying that he'll find love someday.
- And he found you, someone who actually treated him like a normal person. No sweet words, no harsh curses, no hits, nothing. And he love you, so, so much.
🍊 Xanthous: What do they really want?
- Roann just wanted to know what a normal life would be, trying to fulfil his grandparent's wishes. He really wanted to love someone so much and when he is able to love, he loves. He poured so much of his soul, heart, laid his soul bare to you and only you, so won't you love him back?
🐯 Youth: How old are you in comparison to them? Younger, same age, or older?
- In the set story, you ( Y/N ) would be two years younger than him! (24)
- 🍊 Griev's note : It's up to you if you wanted to change the age, either younger, same age or older!
🐯 Zealous: Do they pursue you doggedly, or are they more laidback and casual with their approach?
- Roann would be more laidback and would pursue you via friendship rather than pushing you to love him. He wanted normalcy and wanted it in any way possible, he craved having your love just like those little romance movies and medias he watched.
If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading! I hope you like my boy Roann 🍊🐯
I'd like to imagine that Roann eventually took the inevitable road upon you trying to run away from him and hurting him to escape again and again, trapping you in that gilded cage - that is his home.
Rebooting my account again after some months of working - wowie!
Sorry for the weird reading alignment! I messed up the panels 😭
I'm sorry this took so long! I'm currently working and is trying to draw between my free times ( if I didn't somehow sleep like a log )
Giving yall an idea of how Roann would act around you in the office where you both worked! He would be super stoic ( and will come off as scary at first ) but he actually cared so much for you.
★ warning : (slight?) yandere behavior, mostly Kaveh being a soft yandere(?), theme of captivity and being locked away, modern time setting.
★ 890 words
★ syno : you got taken away months ago, and by the time your birthday rolls around, you decided to try your hand at making a futile escape attempt.
★ author's note : my first post and fanfic on here! i'm sorry if the fanfiction is not that good (and not that well-structured, eng is my second language-). thank you for stopping by and feel free to comment your thoughts on this! - grievoun
It's your birthday.
A celebration that is supposed to be full of laughter or even a whipping cream to the face if your friends were giddy enough to throw you a funny prank - nevertheless, it's a day where you intend to be happy, knowing there are people close to wish you a start full of blessings and luck for turning older by the churning wheel of life.
But are you supposed to celebrate it here out of all places in the city?
In this overly decorated room that fits our taste too much that its suffocating us to death and despair, making you wanting to vomit just by seeing that same dusty bookshelves over and over again, that is filled with books you sure would've read happily if you were in another circumstances that doesn't calls for you to be locked away in his apartment like a bird trapped in a fancy, golden cage. The untouched gift boxes you left purposely by the bed where you're sure he'll see it - an attempt of you trying to show your resistance, of you wanting to go back home so very much.
But he wouldn't even bat an eye to our attempt - only to frustratingly add more of his gifts to us with those gentle smile that irked us to death.
At this point, you'll even take going back to the campus and would do all of those assignments that probably kept on coming and adding up due to your long 'absence' if it means you'll get to step outside of his apartment again and see your loved ones again that kept on appearing in your mind.
You're getting homesick - just wanting to return to their embrace again. No matter how much you tried to distract yourself from this so-called new reality he made for us, your thoughts would wander back to the happier times where you would groggily wake up late at your home without a care and how your mother would lightly scold you for it. How you used to hang out and happily laugh around with your close friends while being at the university. A much more lighter memory to think of rather than those heavy ones where those crimson eyes of his kept on appearing in your mind, clogging you full of his assuring words and pleas for you to stay by his side.
You cursed yourself for meeting, no, falling for him. It's stupid.
It's stupid how you couldn't see whatever stirring inside those mind of his much earlier.
You went to the locked window, the handle sealed shut, dangling uselessly in front of you, as if taunting your freedom of being taken away. In a desperate attempt to escape this fancy prison he made and scrapped up for you, you pulled at the handle, vision blurring due to the amount of tears that threatened to fall down your cheeks. You prayed that it would open - letting you feel that blast of cold air that signals your freedom like a bird taking it's first flight to the vast world in front of it.
The handle wouldn't budge - so you pulled and pulled, and with every friction hopelessly given in pulling the handle, you cried. Sobbed.
Just fucking open..! You cursed, voice low enough, desperate, sobs being let out breathlessly.
Your nails scratched against the handle, your hands getting much redder from the amount of force you put in this attempt at escaping him. Your eyes widened when you swore you felt the handle moved a bit and almost smiling gleefully -
-when you felt those familiar pair of arms wrapped around your waist from behind, your body soaking up his heat.
You sobbed, hands still pulling at the handle as he shushed you ever so softly. So affectionately. But you knew the brewing anger and irritation that is boiling up inside him, especially by the way how he tightens his hold on your waist by the minute.
A warning to let go of your foolish idea of escaping, so you did what he wanted. You didn't dare looking up at him as he turned us around and took a look at your hand, and you heard him give that signature sigh again.
"You shouldn't try to go out right now, you know?" he uttered, his gentle hands rubbing our knuckles felt like a taunt rather than a reassuring gesture. "Especially on your birthday out of all times. I prepared everything for you already." He added, kissing the top of your head.
"You surely don't think I would get mad at you, right?" Kaveh cooed, embracing you tightly, as if to cage you and to pry you away from looking at the window you tried to escape beforehand. "Ah, how funny of you to think I would do so.."
"..even if you left my gifts untouched until now. No, no, I would never." he uttered again, in a low tone of voice.
Was he disappointed? You don't even know. As he held your hand out of the room, you couldn't help but notice that look in his eyes again, that giddiness and excitement that marks his insanity up a notch.
You stayed silent - after all, you know you would rather find solace in silence than to bicker with him now out of all times.
