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𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘨𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴. 𝘪’𝘮 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘭𝘥. 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘳 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘰, 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘺… 𝘪 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘴 𝘪 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯. 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦. 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘶𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴. 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘦, 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘵, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘶𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴 𝘮𝘦.

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@turtlevariabilis I FOUND SOME OF THEIR ART

So this is the person that scammed me out of 90 USD. Their username used to be ‘imaneonleon’, and they took advantage of my kindness when I stupidly removed the PayPal claim I put on them. All I wanted to do was support their art. 😭

THIS IS NOT MY ART, THIS WAS DRAWN BY SOMEONE WHO STOLE MONEY FROM ME.

Now, I *think* I may have found their new account on instagram, and they may have jumped ship from the ROTTMNT fandom to Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel. I’m not 100% sure of this yet, though, so I’ll refrain from naming them at this time.

If anyone has any information on this artist or her current whereabouts, please let me know!

She owes me 90 USD (cost of commission PLUS 20 dollar tip) plus extra for emotional damage. 🫠

[sidyashchiy-na-plakhe]

Hate

Sometimes I resonate with Darkstalker.

At least in his issues with his father (I didn't kill mine, haha).

[raynilikescats]

Welcome! ── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── Welcome!

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𝙽𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚜: 𝚁𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘, 𝙴𝚝𝚑𝚘 𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚜: 𝚑𝚎/𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛/𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝙶𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛: 𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚌, 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚂𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢: 𝚙𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕, 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚜, 𝚊𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚌, 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚌(?), 𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕

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BOUNDARIES AND DNI LIST

Facts about your's truly ^ ^ ✶ 𝙸'𝚖 𝚙𝚕𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚕! 𝙸 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚜𝚙𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙼𝚛 𝙴𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚕𝚊𝚋. 𝙷𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎! ✶ 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚎 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚐𝚞𝚢 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 (𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜) 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢. 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝. 𝙸'𝚖 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚛𝚔𝚢. ✶ 𝙾𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎- 𝙸 𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚌𝚞𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎! 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚢 ^ ^ ✶ 𝙵𝙻𝙸𝚁𝚃 𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷 𝙼𝙴 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝙿𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚙𝚑𝚢𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐! 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚝! 𝚙𝚕𝚣𝚙𝚕𝚣𝚙𝚕𝚣 ✶ 𝚂𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚢, 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚙𝚊𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚍! 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚜, 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜, 𝙳𝙼𝚂! 𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚊𝚙!

✶ 𝙸'𝚖 𝚊 𝙺𝚒𝚠𝚒 𝚠𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎 (𝙸'𝚖 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚉𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍!) 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚝𝚏 𝚒𝚖 𝚘𝚗 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚋𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚊 𝚔𝚒𝚠𝚒 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐. 𝚠𝚎'𝚛𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚎𝚒𝚛𝚍 ✶ 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏! 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢!! 𝚈𝙴𝚂 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚑𝚘𝚝, 𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚢, 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕, 𝚎𝚝𝚌, 𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚎𝚒𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚘𝚞𝚝, 𝚌𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝙸 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎!

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Tagging System!!

✶ #𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚊𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 < 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚎 (𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜) ✶ #𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚜 < 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜! ✶ #𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜 < 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜

✶ #𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚎o'𝚜 𝙰𝚁𝚃!! < 𝚖𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚝!! ✶ #𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 < 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚋𝚢 𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚘 𝚘𝚛 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚙𝚕𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢!

✶ tw: 𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚝 < 𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜, 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝚒𝚏 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍𝚎𝚍!

✶ #𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜 < 𝚖𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚜𝚖𝚙

✶ #𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚞𝚙𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 < 𝚖𝚢 𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚐𝚞𝚢 𝚌𝚘𝚜𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢!

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Art Fight

An art gifting game

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Other blogs I run!!!

✶ @mcyt-userboxes < userboxes! send me a request! ✶ @nominalgravy-offical < bf!nom roleplay blog! ✶ @raynilikesart < art blog, not used anymore! ✶ @etho-boy < my blog for when I'm out of screen time!! go check it out!! I do have other blogs but they ain't active so yeah

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My fandoms! (previously a list of current hyperfixations, but now you just gotta check my blog to see what I'm Not Normal about :D)

✶ Bannerfall SMP ✶ The Life Series ✶ Hermitcraft ✶ Vampires SMP ✶ Skyblock Kingdoms ✶ The Flight SMP ✶ Searching For/Destroying A World That Doesn't Exist ✶ Whitepine ✶ Wickwatcher ✶ The Seach For The Leviathan ✶ Dream SMP ✶ Cherri's Cobblemon SMP ✶ Dungeon Delivery ✶ GIGGS DND ✶ Found In Fire SMP ✶ Pantheon SMP ✶ Lunar Phase SMP ✶ Verity™ ✶ Footage From An Afterlife ✶ Decayed And Decrepit ✶ Not Quite Human ✶ The Love Of A Killer by lagoonlover18 (scarian) ✶ Midnight Strangers ✶ Double Hearted ✶ Outsiders SMP ✶ Evo SMP (unfinished) ✶ Empires SMP (unfinished) ✶ Haunted Winter (unfinished) ✶ Unstable Universe (fandom in-law) ✶ Lifesteal SMP (fandom in-law) ✶ Rats SMP 1 & 2 (fandom in-law) ✶ Pirates SMP (fandom in-law) ✶ Cowboy SMP (fandom in-law) Oops. All MCYT ^_^

BIIIIIG list of my fandoms!

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Links!

✶ Tumblr Communities I've made! ✶ My Spotify (pleaseee save my playlists they are my pride and joy) ✶ My discord server! ✶ Pinterest! ✶ AO3 BABYYY ✶ My youtube channel! I post stuff sometimes! ✶ My twitch!!

userboxes by @zacks-graphics, @booitsjelly, @catjeremyswebcoreblog, @icy-delight, @sunfiredrakn, @wiltingtu1ips, @catgirl-qniki, @solarben

[toolittlearts]

Sometimes regression is not pretty and fun.

Sometimes regression is being so stuck in your mind that you're reliving the horrible feelings you had to endure during childhood.

Sometimes regression is sitting in the corner of your room, hiding from everything.

Sometimes regression is needing someone to love and hold you but you know no one is coming

Sometimes regression is being so jealous of little kids

Sometimes regression is not pretty and fun

[spindle-and-nima]

Cw: a bit of an emotional vent

This is more a vent/trying to sort out my emotions. To preface: spindle is still alive amd hes still at the hospital but this is my own fears and grief.

Im always more composed with my patients that I know are more critical but I cant seem to get a grip aboit spindle.

Ive cried over cottontails, milo, other people's buns that have passed on, but i had no idea that pain would be shadowed in my heart by the potential loss of spindle.

Hes critical. I know he is. This was random and unpredictable just as he is. Hes always been a different type of bun. Clever, sweet, and even his behavior is not the usual. Medically too unfortunately.

I adore him so much. From the day I held him at 2 months old and he purred in my hands on the drive home i knew that when the day would come it would crush me. I want the day to happen 10 years from now. Not at 3 years old.

The idea that this could be it if he doesnt pull through is tearing me apart in ways I cant even process. A heartbreak bigger than all the patients I loved and lost. Ive comforted hundreds of people in their losses and I cant even console myself. My sweet baby boy. My little friend. Hes not even gone, but hes closer to it than hes ever been before and I cant handle it. I can only sit here and wait