just popped in to see how everything was, but then realised it was Tumblr, which has now just become this sort of factory for writers to pump out their works and get no zero to no interaction unless they have mutuals on the app.
I’d like to preface everything by saying that this will be my last post regarding the situation. The intention behind this post is to provide transparency and context regarding recent events involving @/saintsugu (Ezra). The goal of this post (as was the first) is to promote awareness about this individual and clarify on some points, not to initiate a witch hunt or encourage any form of targeted negativity. I want to make it clear that I do not condone any form of death threats, hate speech, harassment, or violence towards this person.
1.) Turning off asks and reblogs.
I made the decision to turn off reblogs and asks in the original post.
Disabling reblogs and asks was necessary because some individuals were using the situation to bring up their own personal issues, using it as an opportunity to call for the “cancellation” of other unrelated parties and openly harass others on the dashboard. This decision aimed to refocus the discussion on the main issue at hand. It was about maintaining a controlled environment to address the specific concerns without veering into unrelated personal disputes. Nothing else.
2.) Hotline numbers.
There’s been speculation that the addition of hotline numbers was to encourage users to report the individual in question and have him investigated by the FBI, that is not the case.
These numbers serve a crucial purpose in emphasizing the importance of support and resources for those affected by sensitive issues such as CSA. The aim is to proactively contribute to creating a safer online space. The inclusion of the hotline numbers solely emphasizes a more proactive approach towards promoting mental health support and assistance for those who may be navigating challenging situations related to the recent events as well as informs victims of csa of some of their resources.
Even though I provided hotline numbers, it is explicitly advised not to report the situation to the FBI. Once again, the intention is to guide individuals towards appropriate mental health and support resources rather than involving law enforcement in this context. This recommendation aims to encourage a balance between addressing concerns and ensuring that the focus remains on community well-being and support rather than legal actions.
I thought this wasn’t something I would need to clarify, but there are a couple of people who genuinely believe that those numbers served as a way to report to the FBI. That was never the intention and that understanding was (for a lack of better words) made up by someone who wanted to create their own personal narrative, even if that meant making false claims or lying.
3.) The accusations and why shota/lolicon is alarming regarding this matter.
Addressing this specific incident regarding shota/lolicon is not an accusation for the fun of it, but an effort to bring attention to real accounts of predatory behavior from Ezra. There have been multiple “reports” of Ezra’s predatory behaviors. These are not baseless claims.
The intention is to share these experiences without compromising any of the victim’s identities and to maintain a level of vagueness to respect privacy and safety of all those involved while emphasizing the serious nature of the matter. There have been two separate incidents that have been brought to my attention after this discourse and both are highly concerning.
Moreover, it’s important to note that defending the right to shota/loli art inadvertently excuses the actions of a person with predatory and pedophilic behavior. While engaging in discussions about artistic freedom, it’s crucial to recognize the potential harm and impact such content may have, especially when it aligns with real-life concerning behavior.
Furthermore, it’s contradictory to claim your discomfort with shota/loli art while simultaneously defending the idea of such art, especially in light of the real-life predatory and pedophilic behavior exhibited by this person. There seems to be a reluctance among some individuals to admit the real reasons behind their discomfort or lack of support for shota/loli art. Acknowledging these reasons might expose inconsistencies in their discourse, making it challenging to maintain a cohesive stance. There is a time and a place to give your “hot take” and unfortunately, this wasn’t the correct time.
There’s a contradiction within the community. On one hand, there’s this outward expression of concern for the safety of real minors, but on the other hand, there is a tendency to dismiss or ignore concrete instances of predatory behavior. The hypocrisy lies in the disconnect between the stated values and the actions taken when faced with real accounts that genuinely raise valid concerns about the well-being of vulnerable individuals.
Where is the support and concern for the minor in his following? The fact that Ezra attempted to deflect responsibility by claiming ignorance about the minor’s age, citing a changed pinned post, raises concerns because it is a blatant lie.
Looking at the history of the account’s pinned, they have always had their age in their pinned, nothing was changed. This doesn’t make sense because if a blog with a “MDNI” policy follows an account “exposed” for being underage, it raises questions. Ezra was consciously aware that this person was a minor.
The others have asked me to keep their identities and information confidential to protect themselves from any doxxing and harassment. These are not baseless claims, however I will respect their wishes for their own safety.
4.) Defending art over real life and hypocrisy in the fandom space.
Another noteworthy point is this phenomenon where individuals are so in their fervor to defend certain forms of art (that they don’t actually support personally because they themselves know its pedophilic depictions), end up dismissing real-life concerns. The intense focus on defending artistic expression is overshadowing the potential harm caused in actual human interactions.
There’s a notable trend where the keyboard justice warriors in the fandom are in such pursuit of moral superiority and advocating for “community improvement,” when they’re prioritizing the appearance of self righteousness over genuine concern for real individuals. You’ve gone so far right that you’re wrong.
There’s a noticeable pattern where accounts are often granted permission to engage in frivolous, petty discourse, taking it to public spaces and sometimes even resorting to sending unwarranted anonymous hate to individuals who don’t deserve it. However, when faced with a serious issue such as this, the narrative completely shifts to a collective call for community improvement! This is a double standard where harmful behaviors are tolerated in less significant situations, yet the same community is urged to “do better” only when confronted with more substantial issues.
5.) POCD
Employing the concept of POCD (Pedophilic Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) as a.. justification for the individual’s actions is deeply troubling and deplorable. It not only misrepresents the nature of mental health disorders but also risks perpetuating harmful stereotypes. Using POCD as an excuse for predatory behavior diminishes the seriousness of mental health discussions and dismisses the victims of the predatory aggressor.
Such a manipulative use of mental health terminology not only undermines the genuine struggles of individuals dealing with mental disorders but also risks normalizing predatory behavior in today’s society both in real life and online. MAPs use this terminology on X in the same form user @/critical-thoughts is using to make their argument. Yes, it’s very crucial to recognize that genuine mental health challenges should be addressed with empathy and support, but employing them as a shield to excuse harmful actions is unacceptable.
It is harmful to imply that someone with POCD needs an outlet for the pedophilic fears they experience. That perpetuates the idea that people who deal with these sorts of intrusive thoughts, secretly harbor the desire to view the material they are so afraid of engaging with. P/OCD is rooted in fear and anxiety. The intrusive thoughts tend to stem from a fear of becoming a pedophile, while your brain tells you that you secretly are one. It’s a nasty thing and difficult to deal with, but implying that people who live with POCD require some sort of access to media like that is incredibly harmful. People with POCD, oftentimes, do not want to engage with that. They often do not want to provide ammunition for their brains to continue doing this to them (though with this disorder, ammunition isn’t necessary) and it is a fear to begin doing so. To imply that someone with POCD would seek out content of children (fictional or not) that way, is harmful and perpetuates a stereotype about POCD that makes it difficult for people living with it to open up or seek the help they need.
It's also “insane” to me that someone can blindly defend someone they do not know. Moreso, someone who has real accounts of predatory behavior not even taking into consideration the art found on his X account. The art itself is what’s alarming because this individual has had actions/interests that align with pedophilia and predatory behavior.
What a lot of you aren’t understanding is that: this isn’t about which dark content is bad and what’s worse, this is about a real danger in the community.
6.) Closing.
In conclusion, it’s my personal belief that some individuals within the community may harbor feelings of resentment towards my original post because they themselves are proven to be proshippers or my other theory is that: lacking critical thinking skills and reading comprehension paired with a sense of self worth that surpasses what they experience in their daily life makes for a very unsafe environment because of the need to want to feel like they’re on the right side of the fence. It’s “block and move on” for a lot of you until its you actually getting blocked. I personally do not and will not support a predator as many of you are so inclined of doing.
hello friends it’s been said before but I think it bears repeating: content creators are already doing all they can to add to fandom.
me and I’m sure a lot of other writers often get the question “any fics similar to yours/any writers who do more of what you do/hey please recc people or fics” and,,, I hope you can see that all these sort of asks are asking for more things to consume, more to read, preferably exactly like what they like about you as a writer -and while I don’t get upset over these messages- I also don’t love them. ༼ ் ▽ ் ༽つ
because the truth is that writers read less than readers. seems pretty obvious hhahshdh . we’re writing for you all, so we don’t have time to go dig through the tags and find new fics or writers we like. so getting messages like this just reminds me that when I’m actively making content for others, I don’t get the time to enjoy fandom. luckily I enjoy writing, so it gets lifted somewhat. but I would like to say this:
if you want more of a certain thing, how about instead of taking more, you try to give? it’s so so rare to receive back as a content creator, and it’s honestly pretty draining. it kills fandoms. genuinely. you guys have to understand fandom is a two way street.
if there’s a fic you really like, send it to a writer you think will enjoy it, and maybe that writer will get inspired. if you know someone likes a certain topic, send them some blog recs! If someone’s having trouble writing, send them an ask about an idea they might enjoy. It’s really really not as hard as you guys seem to think it is to make fandom more enjoyable for both parties. Because I promise you, I promise you!! If a writer is inspired and happy, you will get a lot more content to read too, than when they’re not. It benefits you to interact with, and help out your fav writers.
unless someone specifically has a rule not to, help us (writers) out a little. and ofc this isn’t calling out people who already interact, and reblog, and leave nice comments on fics. yall are little muffins whomst I love the most. but I wont answer asks that want more, because one, I don’t know many other writers to rec and two, it’s not fun to know you’re sending another writer a bunch of readers who will just pass by to read everything they’ve poured hours into, and then most likely ask them the same thing and move on
*clears throat and sips water* i believe poc and black fanfic writers on here are put on a higher pedestal of criticism compared to their white counterparts. that's it, thanks for coming to my ted talk.
using a ref is one thing. but completely tracing it is another. and the fact you're taking coms? i hope nobody actually paid you for this @bontenswhxre . i know if i commissioned an artist and the result was a completely traced ref i would be upset about it. and you've not credited any of these refs either.
Saint you're a wonderful writer and probably the most patient one I've come across because my fucking god these people have no chill. I'm sorry I'm being harsh but it feels like some people are just skipping on entire paragraphs???? And reading only the shit which would push their gojoyn endgame and utahime and satoru hate agenda?????
Like my god I even kind of felt sympathetic towards sera in sn (not the chamomile tea incident that was plain vile) because I can get her side of the story which you tried to explain so much when you wrote about her situation at home, her need for money, etc.
Yes a lot of her actions with gojo were completely wrong and in that time I sided with yn obv because it wasn't fair to her but at the same time I considered her as a character who has two sides of the story and not just one where she was looking like she wanted to destroy another woman's life
In the same way I can understand utahime as well because you wrote about her side of the story as well. And it's honestly ENOUGH for me to consider her not a plain evil person and just someone who wants love and her own stuff from life.
Its obv unfortunate that the one utahime wants is the ex husband of her bestf but honestly if I've learned anything, it's that sometimes you cannot help who you fall in love with. (This is controversial but honestly I've been in yn's shoes in my life and that is how I'm forming an opinion on it)
Again the thing I completely disagree with, is her not telling yn sooner about her and satoru. This was wrong.
And satoru. This man rn. Is trying to move on. I agree that it's again unfortunate that it's with yn's bestf but he's trying because yn has told him THAT SHE CANNOT BE WITH HIM. WTF ELSE IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO.
I FR SEE PEOPLE BEING LIKE "you could've done more to be with her again but you didn't" LIKE. HOW. TF. HE TRIED EVERYTHING. LITERALLY THE ONLY OPTION I COULD SEE THAT WAS LEFT WAS EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION AND FORCE. DID PEOPLE WANT THAT? I HOPE TF NOT.
I'm sorry but in my opinion he tried everything.
Again I will forever remember how satoru treated her in sn and how much she mentally and physically suffered during that period. I was crying while reading guys pls don't get me wrong I'm not trying to defend his actions. I was really mad at satoru during an era. And I recognize that he only came to yn after she started to not give a fuck but here's the thing (maybe controversial)- he suffered. He became fucking su*cidal because because he was made to believe that he lost his child. That is in my opinion enough of a punishment for him. This is my interpretation because as a reader, my emotions and opinions for characters change with changing circumstances.
And yn. I will forever have a soft spot for her and I just want her to be happy because she deserves it. She's also just human and I dont really know what to say but wish for her happiness.
But here's the last thing. It's a story. And its angst. And its saint's story. AND SHE CAN DECIDE WHAT TO DO WITH HER STORY, THE CHARACTERS, THE PLOT AND EVERYTHING.
LITERALLY THE ONLY THING WE CAN DO IS READ FUCKING PROPERLY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE'S TRYING TO POTRAY. ITS THE BEARE MINIMUM. THEN WILL COME OUR OWN OPINIONS BASED ON OUR OWN EXPERIENCES IN LIFE BUT FIRST, WE CAN TRY TO NOT INVALIDATE ALL OTHER POINTS JUST TO PUSH OUR OPINIONS ON HER.
And saint has said time and time again that these characters are imperfect. They're human. They hurt and get hurt.
The least we can do is not invalidate what she says and be respectful to her and the characters while saying something.
Anonymous said
Hi Saint! I’m so sorry that the response of sy is pretty much overwhelming you, both sn and sy are so so great, and you’re such an amazing writer that’s really infuriating seeing you so tired because of all the negativity! Even me as a fellow reader, I get stressed by so many harsh and violent comments in the comment box, I can’t imagine what does your ask box looks like, yikes
I wish there was a way you could limit abd filter all toxic asks and still be able to see those who analyze and appreciate your beautiful work :( all this negativity and toxicity is not healthy for you, and it’s totally valid if you need to take a rest and put sy in hiatus
I know I’ll be here for it when you’re ready to return, it’s not much but it’s honest! And I do know a lot of people in this community that’ll be as patient and loving
Honestly I don’t know where all this hate came from :c sn had it too, but it’s seems out of control since sy started! Since wattpad came into our lives it seems like there’s a small community of readers that feel entitled to demand what they want from the story, but this is not ours, it’s yours!
And I don’t know the age range of people who read sn/sy, I’ll hope it’s +18 since your blog ask minors not to interact, and I see a lot of Euphoria fans (and the show is +18 too) but a lot of negative readers and ask doesn’t really sound mature enough to understand that a lot of what’s happening in the story is a response of the environment/context/history etc of sn, so instead of painting villains every chapter maybe you should wait and judge when the story ends, really, if you don’t have something nice to say, just don’t
i appreciate the support. thank you <3 it wasn’t even real hate, just some really toxic asks from entitled anons who want the plot to go their way instead of mine. mine. me, the writer. like why the fuck are u reading angst if you can’t handle it? it’s also nonsensical, like saying everything is in favor of utahime and i have favoritism 😭 goddamn. it’s ridiculous. and yeah i agree that some people just don’t sound mature enough but i’m really over it. i’ve been discussing this whole thing w my moot and it’s true that whatever plot i go with (whether it’s gojoyn endgame or not) people will always have something to say. i literally cannot satisfy everyone.
Why do you write for mainly chubby people?? Skinny people deserve Love too ☹️
Bruh I am a chubby person— of course I’m going to write for chubby people
I’m a chubby person representing chubby people. Most of my works actually aren’t body specific; no specific body types or identifiers. But when I DO write for chubby people— stop complaining because…
Ive had enough of constantly seeing skinny people represented in the media as the ‘ideal’ beauty— fat people deserve love and sex and relationships too. We’re no less deserving just because we’ve got extra skin and fat on our bones. We’re still people, we’re humans with emotions and feelings and constantly seeing skinny people in the media hurts and really pushes you down.
I’m going to write for chubby people because otherwise— who will? Who else other than chubby fanfic writers etc will let people know that we can be sexy too. I’m not going to be able to look at chubby porn without it being fetishised and overly sexualised.
I love being able to subtly write chubby people without it being as obvious as a man grabbing a fat woman’s rolls and saying “mmmm yeah— I love your fat baby” instead I can write how the fat spills between an anime mans fingers as he fucks into her with lust and need NOT because she’s fat, But because she’s a human being with needs and a personality
In no way am I saying that skinny people don’t deserve love— EVERYONE deserves love, they do, everyone is beautiful and deserves to be fucked until they cry but please don’t come onto my blog saying stuff like this
I love daichi but once he became a cop my clit shriveled up
so like I don't trust cops. i don't like cops. i don't date cops.
i'm the i wouldn't date a cop chick who fell in love with a guy who happens to be a cop. life's funny like that. he's chivalrous, he's protective, he tases spiders for me and teaches me self-defense and shit.
Truth be told tho, Daichi could shovel dog shit for a living and I’d still be on my knees for him. 🧎🏼♀️
I see and love the man that he is, not the insignia on his clothes.
