#tw.negativity

[timerevolt]

Night time is hard for me. I realized this lately. It's like as soon as the sunsets I wanna curl into a ball.

[jimines]

Hi! First of all I'm so sorry you had to go through all that, no one deserves to go through some shitty friends acting entitled on circle icons skskks :/ Nicole was my moot too, but idk she has been very nice to me skskks and I really don't know what to feel about this whole issue. I understand your feelings and the other blogs who were attacked by her. My feelings are so mixed oml 🤡

Once again I hope you have non toxic friends, and have a wonderful day! <3

Hello dear! Thank you aha.

Ahh, don't feel obligated to be against her or whatever, you can do whatever you want to do honestly, I couldn't care less if people are still friends with her. I just felt it was about time I laid it all out from start to finish for those that had been lied to and didn't know just how bad she was. That and I was just fed up LOL. Everyone is entitled to feel how they feel and do as they please though. And you're not the only one to have mentioned being conflicted so you aren't alone in that haha.

And thanks again hun, I hope you have a lovely day as well! <3

[vuhswrites]

Heheh. Seeing old urls still active and we used to RP but now we don’t because I’m no longer canon Thor. Just feeling a little left out today...

[whitefoxedarchives]

So after last night’s HTP reblogs (and I chose the mildest ones) apparently I lost 1 follower and got blocked by another. Erm.

So there’s a lot of jewish support rn due to the synagogues’ attacks recently, which I am all for, but there are posts highlighting Nazi OCs in particular and tbh because I haven’t seen any actual Nazi OCs, besides the occasional turncoat and obvious villains (like all other villain muses), I feel like they are in particular targeting Hydra OCs? 

Like, I’m not trying to make this personal, it’s just somewhat distressing, especially since I was recently approached about it due to Hydra having Nazi affliation. There was a lot of hate going on in the comments directed to such OCs, furthermore to their muns and I can’t help relating.

If they really are Nazis and anti semanticists behind said muses, then certainly they are unforgivable. But to write off muses before you even find out how they are written, writing off their muns before you even know the muses’ background, or the fact that they are played villainous and portrayed in a bad light the same way normal villain muses are, is just...

It just feels like another round of Tumblr Drama™ but it’s not because antisemitism is real, yet it feels like the same blanket drama again. -sigh- Also let me repeat, I understand if roleplaying certain controversial topics is uncomfortable and you don’t want to, but my rping it with someone consensual is not condoning it.

[whitefoxedarchives]

Lise is a very empathetic person, who validates and understands the emotions of others.

But because of his nature — his natural instinct for survival, learned pretence (managing his expressions) and compartmentalisation — the speed and ease of which he is able to suppress his PTSD and suicide-inducing fear and depression, he became unable to accept that he has the right to those emotions. 

To him, ‘true’ sufferers experience it for a longer period of time, hence suffer more and it would be too ‘egoistic’ to think he can relate and understand their pain fully - when he actually could. 

He is very optimistic and knows himself to be, so negative thoughts are also systematically suppressed. None of his actual PTSD, personal issues or mental problems are addressed properly. The constant suppression running in the background of his mind adds a constant stress and he gets easily emotionally exhausted. Which again is suppressed in times of need, forming a vicious cycle.

Unconsciously he prefers to spend time alone when he’s in such a state.

[whitefoxedarchives]

Want to know a sad thing? 

The two people in my life who loves me the most and never wanted to hurt me: 

has relied on me as their emotional crutch

broken said crutch due to their own issues

were once my only reasons to keep living on because i was suicidal af

given me trauma regarding receiving ‘I love you.’

has improved and is still in contact with me (mom and now-ex)

still loves me very much and doing their best not to hurt me

I know I have my own issues and shit, and definitely had my fair share of wrong, but for once I just wish - I didn’t have to lose my reasons to live and learn how to live without. That I can love back without feeling like its because I owe people something. That I was never a crutch in the first place. Or had to learn how to help people process their feelings and understand them so well I can’t get angry at what they did to me without feeling guilt. That I know what helplessness feels like. That people say I’m courageous for daring to spill my guts out in public but I literally have nothing solid to hold said guts which is why it’s spilling everywhere like a traffic accident. It’s not courage. It’s just spilling. Everywhere. 

[infusedwithfiction]

Fucking fucking fuck. So my father has been trying to build me a bookcase for four fucking months. it has been sitting in my room looking like shit. so just this weekend he has decided to try and 'fix' it. now it's sitting in my fucking room looking more fucking worse than it was before.there is freaking painters tape everywhere, wood glue, and who knows what the fuck else. he asked me at least ten times if i wanted to keep it, or if i liked it anymore. i told him no. no, no, no ,no ,no , i fucking hate it. he just kept going and going for three freaking hours to add more awful shit to it. my mom says she can 'fix' it or make it look better. but honestly this thing will never look good. it will never look better. i just don't even feel good anymore. i just want this fucking thing to be over with. tossed in the trash. on top of all of this i recive a shitty test mark in math. this weekend has just been full of shit, crying and fucking emotions. i just want this whole thing to freaking stop. 

god i need a fucking nap. or friends. i should have gone to the fucking night of writing dangrously tonight. this whole thing would have been avoided. 

[infusedwithfiction]

God dammit. 

I was working on a project in final cut earlier today and I finished it. But when I tried to send the sequence to a partner who had most of the work done, I couldn't figure out how to send it. 

Turns out I fucking crashed the program and when I turned it back on, I lost everything. 

I am just so fucking done, just done. I'll probably have to sacrifice my lunch tomorrow just to finish it before last period so I can work on my acutal animation assignment. 

God, I haven't sat down with my friends and had a decent lunch in weeks. 

Doesn't help that my partner in editing is a grade twelve I hardly know. He seems nice and all, actually talks to me, but I can tell he's stressed about this. As am I. 

I just want it to be the ninth already. Then this will all be over.