#tw:venting

[forgedinthegoldenlight]

BEE VENT

Brooo, I need more spicy Bee things…but everyone treats him like a child! He is not! WTF is it because of the Bay movies!? Where did that come from??? G1??? FREE MY ADULT BOI LMFAO! IT BECAUSE HE IS SMALL!! BITCH IM SHORT AF! he is like 4 million years old!! ;-;

[meowiemari]

Vent:

If I don’t help someone like they expect me to, they get mad

If I help them, they can get mad

wtf is the right choice

[scribble-skull-rat]

I'm sorry, but I just really need to vent anonymously right now and you were the first person I could think of- I've to send a video of me saying Thank you to my teacher and this popular girl is going to putting all of them together and I can't bring myself to send a video. My voice is really high-pitched, I look a mess and am on the verge of tears. I really wanna leave a heartfelt message because she's always been there for me but I'm scared I'll be judged and I just can't do it-

Woah hey calm down, its okay. Im always open for vents, second of all its okay to be afraid of judgement. Personally id try to take deep breaths and make a short mesaage so i can keep the panicking to a minimum, im sure its going to be okay. You wont be judjged for showing that you care about your teacher

[theemeraldeyedhunter]

Well I tried but being sick did not want me doing that..

Well I unfollowed one toxic blog.. On the other hand GRRRRR people people you do not reblog roleplays that are going on between two people to comment a random fucking thought. Like great you know how to think you're a cool person but you fucking made my notifications screw up.. Like you can go to the first post if it was an open one and reply you're own muse but not going,"Oh hey this reminds me of this.." Because just.. *sighs*

[taigas-den]

Sometimes a little support or enthusiasm goes a long way.

Well, I've been kind of down and frustrated at the double sided support I've been getting with becoming a Vulture. My parents and my mate are very supportive...but with disclaimers. I'll mention something I saw today on the road or the progress on cleaning out my freezer or a new skull I just got or really want and I get the sideways glance with the half smile saying "do you really need that?" Or some other back- handed comment about how my interests are a burden! I understand that it's taking up space, but I'm getting rid of all of my old stuff to make room for it. I understand it's gross. You're not dealing with it aside from the occasional time I have to move my degreasing pot into the laundry room so it doesn't freeze or the fact that yes I'm going to use our SECOND outside free-standing freezer for my dead things. But I was given permission for this. Every time I say I saw something I hope is still around by the time the freezer is up and running, I get a comment like "I don't want you getting too overwhelmed. If I see you not working on these projects then I'm not going to let you pick anything up." and every time I say anything it's just some sort of lecture after another about how i need to be responsible and not get in the way of the rest of the house hold and how I need to be sanitary.

This wouldn't be as annoying if I didn't feel it to be so condescending. I'm fully aware of all of this. I know how much I can handle. I know how to be clean about this. I know not to let the dogs get a hold of anything. I'm used to "not being in the way" in our household.

I wish that people could focus on the good things that being a Vulture has brought upon me like willingly getting rid of shit, expanding my biological knowledge exponentially, and being more willing to socialize with people. But no, these benefits get swept under the rug because the rest of it can be a burden.

I wish I had someone around here to go bone hunting with and who would be excited to come help me clean bones and learn how to skin. I might try to contact my old coworker from my internship last Summer. Each time we were out surveying we would find bones and she and I would fight over who got what, haha.

My best friend is the most supportive. She is pretty excited whenever I show her a new skull or a new pelt and she and I make things out of leather and fur together. However, I don't think she'll want to help me clean bodies.

Blah. It's too late in the evening and I'm starting to get bummed.

I talked to my mate about his lack of support. I mean, I don't want him to be over the top ecstatic that I saw a dead rabbit on my way home from school but I'd prefer a different response than "don't tell me about the dead things you see and DO NOT need." I know it's not a lack of comfort with the topic either. It's an annoyance of the topic. I did talk to him about it, though, and he apologized. My parents will never change on these kinds of things because no matter what it's all the time. I wore my headdress home from work and immediately got a lecture "I don't want you wearing that on one of your hikes." Why? Why the hell not? Then the drunk friends that were there chimed in "I know what she means...coming from a mother...You're a young lady...and if anyone knows what fur is worth...they could take advantage of you......" What does that even mean?

Anywhodles, I'm rambling. Peace.

[goddessofmusic-blog]

stupid vent poem

a few scars made all straight lines they will all fade just give it time

a few drops shed clothes they stain i'll make some more just don't get a vain

i'm so pathetic i'm such a fake i know i'm an idiot i don't know why my heart aches

your words dont hurt your jokes don't punch so why do i care about it so much

I should give in I should give up I should let them win I should shut up I don't feel welcome I blade shouldn't feel right I should get out while i still can Before they win this fight

[kiboukomaedas]

Is there anyone who happens to not like Free? (swimming anime)

#TW: Opinions, Rant, Venting #TW: a little bit about gender identity regards to myself

I don’t even know why I’m bothering to post about this, but I think I just reached the point where I’m having trouble tolerating the Free! Fans. My friend who usually doesn’t watch animes, finally decides to. But I got unnecessarily upset to hear that it was the “Swimming Anime". I don’t like to hold anything against those who happen to enjoy watching the anime, but I don’t like hearing about it everywhere or having it clog up my newsfeed or dash. I am a fan of Kyoto Animation, but Free puts me off quite a bit. To be honest, the real reason I cosplayed Nagisa was because of that as well as it being a relatively comfortable cosplay to do in the hot summer heat. I’m a fan of animes and mangas that not only have good art, but have well developed plot. For example, Shingeki no Kyojin, Hunter x Hunter, EVA, and so on. Animes that solely exists for fan service just repels me.. Sorry for putting out some triggering opinions. It’s just not my thing, any animes that have no meaningfulness isn’t something that floats my boat. I feel odd being a “girl" now. Many of my female friends enjoy it, and I’m an odd one out. But then again, I guess that’s just one more hint that I’m not meant to be emotionally or mentally female. Maybe I’m actually a bisexual boy. I DON’T KNOW.

How did a post about Free! Turn into a mental discussion about my gender identity…

Anyways, I just want to be assured that it’s not just myself that isn’t a fan of Free! right? I feel so alone and upset having to keep my distaste in it a secret. orz