#twhomophobia

[are-they-all-sims]

Part 1 of 2

(Third person POV)

(A/N: TW for homophobia/homophobic slurs. Also, just wanted to state that this post does not reflect my personal beliefs at all and I do not condone using homophobic language.)

After youth group one day, Bear, Duke, Dale Carver (Bear's cousin), and Hannah Richards (a member of the church/friend), stayed behind and were chatting.

Dale: "My mother told me that our new pastor has been caught in some compromising positions."

Bear: "What kind of compromising positions?"

Dale: "Allegedly he supports gay people. Says the gays are ok, which we all know isn't true. For one it's a sin, and for two, it's disgusting. Fags and their supporters have no place in this church."

Hannah: "Well, that's a bit harsh, Dale. As Christians we should accept everyone, even if we don't agree with their lifestyle."

Duke: "Hannah's right, we shouldn't judge anyone."

Dale: "Not if their lifestyle is bothering me. Right, Bear? You wouldn't want any fags in this church, would you? They'd be hitting on us and trying to lure us into committing sin."

Bear: "Uh, yeah. I can't say I would. It is pretty...gross, I guess."

Duke: "Believe me, Dale, I don't think any man would be hitting on you." *turns to look at Bear* "Or you. I'll see you all later, my parents are going to wonder where I am."

Bear (thinking): 'What have I done?"

[marshmallowprotection]

My mother asked me why there was a lot of gay stuff on TV. My sister told her that it was pride month. Eventually my mother asked why there wasn’t a straight pride, but then said asking that question was racist or sexist. I’m dying rn. Little does she know that I’m bi. 😂😂😂

I don’t think that’s all that funny. It sounds really patronizing to me and frankly, that rubs me the wrong way because I hear that stuff pretty often from people in my own family and there’s a reason why I’m not out to people. 

You can tell that someone has some really bigoted and toxic ways of thinking when they say things like “why is there a pride month, or why is there a black history month?” and then they say, “if they have that we should have white history month”. You know why that isn’t a thing, Karen? Because Cishet White people have dictated the way that society is for the longest time and the world is built on this foundation of racist, homophobia, etc ideas. 

You know why there’s not a month for that? Because literally, every other day is about the privilege that Cishet White People have. Why are you throwing a fit or having a tantrum that there is a month that isn’t about you? It isn’t for you and you shouldn’t be doing that. Take a step back and look at yourself in the mirror and check your privilege. 

So, yeah, it was wrong of her to say that, and I’m sorry you had to hear that cause I doubt she has great opinions on the subject and she may subject you to some bullshit that nobody deserves, especially not you. 

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1.31 Reunion

Johnny: This is a pretty nice place.

Bonnie: Yep, it’s just the right size for me and Trinity. Close to everything and the rent’s not too bad. It’s nice not having a big house to keep up, but it does feel a bit lonely sometimes with just the two of us.

Johnny: I guess it’s the same with me and Chantal. Going from 5 people in one place to only two is a big difference. The quiet is almost eerie at times.

Johnny: Why are you looking at me like that?

Bonnie: It’s just…you’re a man now. You used to have the chubbiest little cheeks but now your face is all angular.

Johnny: I had to grow up sometime. But if it helps you feel any better, I’m still pretty immature.

Bonnie: [laughs] That does help. It’s already hard for me to believe that Destiny is a mom now. Even Trinity has a little boyfriend. My babies are growing up too fast. So what’s going on with you? Anyone special in your life?

Johnny: Uh, well, I did start seeing someone recently. She’s not really my girlfriend yet but we’ve been spending a lot of time together.

Bonnie: Oh, good! I wasn’t sure if you liked girls because of…well, you know.

Johnny: No, I don’t know. What do you mean?

Bonnie: Well, with your father and his whole…situation.

Johnny: You mean him being gay? It’s not contagious.

Bonnie: I just didn’t know. A father is a huge role model for his son. It’s easy to get influenced by certain things.

Johnny: That’s not how it works, Mom. Being gay isn’t a choice. Besides, what if I was? Is that really something you’re concerned about?

Bonnie: No! I don’t know. I guess it was just hard for me not being around and not having a say in how you were raised. I don’t really know your dad, you know. You pretty much shut me out once you started living with him.

Johnny: Well, he’s a great guy, Mom. You know, I think you got so used to selling the lie that Pops was the big villain in your story that you started to believe it. But you know that isn’t true, and I’m not falling for that bullshit. You know who the villain in my story is and how he got there.

Bonnie: I know, Johnny. I’m sorry, I–

Johnny: No, we’re not doing this again. Sorry is just a word. If you want to have a relationship with me again, I need you to realize a few things. First of all, I’m not listening to any criticism from you about Pops or Dad. They saved my life, which they wouldn’t have had to do if you hadn’t kept me from them for so long.

And second, I need you to own up to the fact that your ex-husband abused me, and that you didn’t believe me when I tried to talk to you about it. And I need you to do that without making excuses.

I don’t give a fuck if you were too high to know what was going on, or if Jimmy told you I was out of control and needed discipline or whatever. The bottom line is I was being hurt and you didn’t help me. So if you can do those two things for me, I might be willing to forgive you down the road. But if you can’t, I’m done. Full stop.

Bonnie: I can do that. I won’t say anything about your father again. You’re right, I was supposed to protect you and I didn’t. That’s on me. 

Johnny: Okay. That’s a start. But this is going to take some time. I need you to understand that.

Bonnie: I do. I’m going to do better by you, baby. I promise.

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1.7 Desperate Measures

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Transcript below:

[19 years ago, Part 2 of 3]

[Bonnie is taking a pregnancy test]

Bonnie: Shit, it's positive! You have got to be kidding me.

[Solomon's house]

Solomon: Hey Dad, Bonnie called and asked me to come over so I'll be late for dinner.

Reggie: That's not a problem, son.

Reggie: I'm just glad things are going well with her. I'm proud of you. We all make mistakes, but you were willing to take responsibility and turn your life around. Not everyone involved in that lifestyle gets out so easily.

Solomon: Thanks, Dad. I just want to be a good son and a good person.

Reggie: You are, you are. You know, I feel bad for the parents of those people who've been out protesting for gays to get married. They must feel so ashamed.

Solomon: Yeah, it's pretty horrible. Anyway, I guess I need to head out.

Reggie: Tell Bonnie I said Hello!

[Bonnie's house]

Bonnie: Thanks for coming. I hope you didn't run into any of those protestors on the way. I heard they're getting rowdy out there.

Solomon: Oh, no, I didn't.

Bonnie: Crazy isn't it? I mean, I don't hate gays or anything but I don't think they should be getting married or raising children. It's just not the same.

Solomon: Yeah, it's…not right.

Bonnie: It's just unnatural. Like they can do what they want behind closed doors but they don't have to call it marriage or bring kids into it. Children need a mom and a dad. Speaking of…have you ever thought about getting married or having kids?

Solomon: Yeah, I'd really like to find someone I can truly love and grow old with. And I'd love to be a father. I'd love my kids unconditionally and support them no matter what.

Bonnie: Wow, that's great! You'll be an amazing husband and father, Sunny, I just know it. Look, I know we haven't been together that long, but I can really see us getting married, having kids, all of it. Actually, there's something I need to tell you.

Solomon: There's something I need to tell you, too.

Bonnie: What is it?

[honeyjars-sims]

1.8 All's Not Lost

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Protest poses by @hula-zombie and @deadlymodern

Transcript below:

[19 years ago, Part 3 of 3]

Solomon: Look, Bonnie, I'm really sorry for wasting your time. I was really trying to change, but I don't think I can. I don't know if I even want to anymore.

Bonnie: What are you talking about?

Solomon: Bonnie, I'm just like those protestors. I'm…I'm gay.

Bonnie: No, you're not. You're not like that. That can't be true!

Solomon: It is. I'm sorry I mislead you. I wasn't thinking about the consequences of getting involved with you. I just didn't want to lose my family or my friends. I was desperate, but I know now it wasn't right of me to bring someone else into it.

Bonnie: I can't believe this! You were just telling me how you want to grow old with someone and have kids! You really think you're going to find that with another man?

Solomon: Yeah, I do. All those people out protesting are fighting for the right to have their relationships recognized like straight relationships are. They're fighting for love.

Bonnie: Love? You don't know anything about love. I was wrong about you, Solomon. You're not father material at all.

Solomon: I'm going to leave now. I hope you can open your mind someday. Wait, didn't you need to tell me something?

Bonnie: It doesn't matter anymore.

[As Solomon leaves Bonnie’s house he once again sees the gay bar. This time a crowd of protestors, including David, are gathered outside. He starts heading towards them.]

[David's and Solomon's eyes meet]

[honeyjars-sims]

1.6 Swallow Your Pride

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Transcript below:

[19 years ago, Part 1 of 3]

Reggie: No son of mine is going to be a homosexual! Don't come back until you get some sense.

Solomon: Fine.

[As Solomon walks through town, he glances at a gay bar. He walks past it to another bar across the street.]

Bonnie: Hey, I haven't seen you around here.

Solomon:…

Bonnie: Nice to meet you too, Sunshine.

Solomon: I'm sorry, I just got into it with my dad, so I'm not in a great mood.

Bonnie: I get it. I don't really get along with my mom. She wants me to be a different person, and I'm too stubborn to change.

Solomon: Yeah, I guess parents just have high expectations for their kids.

Bonnie: I'm sure you two can work it out. I want things to be better with my mom, too. My dad died when I was young, so I'm always worried I'm going to run out of time with her, too.

Solomon: It's tough because my Dad and I have always been so close. Now he wants nothing to do with me.

Bonnie: Why not?

Solomon: It's a long story. Nothing worth talking about.

Bonnie: Well, whatever it is, I'm sure it's not enough to ruin your relationship over. I would give anything to have one more day with my dad.

Solomon: I'd never want to be in your position. Maybe I should just swallow my pride and apologize.

Bonnie: I think that's the right choice. Maybe I'll work things out with my mom soon. I'm Bonnie by the way.

Solomon: I'm Solomon.

Bonnie: I think I'll stick to calling you Sunshine. Or how about Sunny? It suits.

Solomon: Ok…but what can I call you?

Bonnie: I don't care, as long as you call me. Here's my number. Don't be shy.

[honeyjars-sims]

Part of a series of flash stories intended as a supplement to my story Safe Harbor. Context for this post is here.

Solomon was feeling optimistic after he and David sat down with Cece to explain what all their jobs entailed. She did seem to understand more about how the family's financial status afforded them opportunities that others don't have. Of course, he knew it would take more than one conversation to help his daughter see the bigger picture, but at least he and David had a better idea of how to approach things.

Working at the LGBT Youth Center wasn't easy, but Solomon knew he was meant for his job. Everyday he was face to face with young people in the community who were experiencing things he also dealt with when he was their age. It was fulfilling to see them persevere through all of the challenges that had befallen them.

Solomon reflected on the day his dad Reginald found out he was gay. A friend of his father had seen Solomon entering the local gay bar and passed the information onto Solomon's dad. Solomon was finishing up his Bachelor degree and still living with his parents at the time. When he arrived home from class one day, he was confronted by an angry Reggie. What happened next was a blur, but he remembered snippets of what his dad told him: "not in my house," "I raised you better than that," and "you're not really like those people," were some of the phrases that came to his mind.

Reggie kicked Solomon out that night. He couchsurfed at some friends houses for a while, but the feeling of rejection and loneliness became too much to deal with. He returned to his father's house and promised to turn away from the gay "lifestyle." He tried for a while; he began dating women and focusing on his school work, suppressing his true feelings. When one girlfriend started talking about marriage, he knew he was in too deep. He couldn't fathom getting married to someone he didn't love and possibly having a family with them. So he told her the truth. She didn't take it well. Neither did his father when he officially came out and said he was done hiding.

Solomon and his father were once again on the outs. Throughout the years they came together and then fell back apart. Reggie did, at times, express regret for denouncing his son but still struggled with the reality that Solomon was in a relationship with another man. He grew to love Cece (he initially said she wasn't really his granddaughter since they weren't blood related). But when Solomon and David got legally married, Reggie retreated once more. A few years had passed since then, but they still hadn't spoken.

Later that evening Solomon received an unexpected text from his mother Simone. He initially feared the worst after their sporadic contact, but the text simply said: "Do you have anything planned for Cece's birthday? We would love to come and help you set up and celebrate!" He was at once filled with both hope and doubt. He wasn't sure if he would ever mend things with his father but he knew he would regret not trying. After a slight hesitation, Solomon told Simone that she and Reginald were more than welcome to come. He hoped he wouldn't come to regret that decision.

[fuckinglovemanga]

ok so its 6 am and i made this while high.

For those who don’t speak greek, here’s a translation of the lyrics:

I stay up late

and I wear stiletto heels

I dance like a bitch on the bar

and everyone says: "Here's a hot ass pussy!"

Third forth rate whore

and my pussy like a caliper

grabs heads and tails.

I can't get enough of fucking

drenched in cum

and everyone slips in the juices.

I'm a whore, I say it out loud

i like to fuck

with old men and twinks

I'm a whore, mom said that too

because I was confessing

while sucking off the priest

My teacher, my best friend,

my cousin and my godfather

And my dad and my mom

my brother and my grandmother

The policeman, the fireman,

the postman Mr. Orestis

and Andreas and the dyke

because I'm a beggar for cock.